Monday, November 5, 2012

Love





I cant get enough of this little boy. I never ever imagined being able to love this much again. 
He is such an incredible light. I battle with myself everyday trying to not spoil him by holding and kissing him every second of the day. I try not to run and pick him up every peep he makes. but that usually doesn't happen. I was going to start babywise with him like we did with Makenzie. It worked great with her. She was sleeping through the night by now. but I am such a sucker for this face. and when he crys. Oh I'm mush. I cant take it. Then I start thinking--- what if he never sleeps through the night--- but honestly I don't care. I want to do whats best for him and I know at some point he NEEDS to get a good nights rest... but for now- He can get up whenever he wants. I can sleep when he is grown and out of the house. Which I know will come wayy to fast. I cant believe we are already almost at month 2. This is the time we started to notice problems with Makenzie. My anxiety is a little out of control. You would laugh how many times I am googling some "symptom" I think he has during the day. Seriously a few times a day at least. I watch him and analyze everything he does. I am so afraid of losing him. I know I cant control what is to come and that's what scares me. I am soaking up every moment with him. I don't take any middle of the night feeding or middle of the day scream for granted. I am so thankful and so blessed to share every second of my life with him. I just pray I can keep him longer than his sister. Oh how I pray... 
He is my entire world. I am the luckiest Mum to call him mine.
Every night as I kiss him good night I thank him for choosing me to be his Mum. 

4 comments :

jill said...

I LOVE HIS outfits!!! hes so cute!
Love you and love him!

AUnt Jill

Alerie said...

I love his clothes!! You always have him dressed so cute. These pants are adorable. LOVE this post. I'm glad you are enjoying him. I haven't ever experienced anything like you, but have really bad anxiety in general and google everything too. My husband likes to refer to me as Dr. Google - haha!! It drives him crazy!! Oh well....

Alerie said...

Oh and just so you know, I started following you on Instagram (alieguti) just so you aren't wondering who this crazy person is liking your pictures all of the time.

debbie said...

I love this post! Your love for him emanates from the screen! He is so lucky to have you as his mom! And so is Kenzie!

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