Sunday, May 9, 2010

Mothers Day

and it began-july 18th 2009-2:10 A.M.-makenzie rye

being a mom means...

.2 am is the new 2 pm

.when they sleep you sleep
.your not sure what that stain on your shirt is from
.poop isn't that bad
.its common to pray for burps and farts
.your newest accessory costs more than anything you could get at tiffany & co.

.unconditional love
.unimaginable dedication
.the best job in the world

.spending hours on the floor
.skipping a girls/date night because we are having the best party at home
.hauling around 100+ lbs of extra gear
.endless kisses
.endless hugs
.endless tears
.endless smiles

.boggy noses
.waxy ears
.boggy eyes
.multi colored poop
.weird smells
.talking about poop on a regular basis
.lots of dirty laundry
.lots of baby whips

.happy moments
.sad moments
.scary moments
.loving moments
.missing moments
.hoping moments
.unsure moments
.great moments
.dream come true moments
.worst nightmare moments

.staring for no reason
.missing when they are right there
.smiling at everything
.excited for the past, present and future

.doing things you never thought you would
.giving up everything
.in a second
.because nothing else matters

dear makenzie rye.
happy YOU day. its a YOU day because YOU made today a ME day. a happy mothers day.
thank you for making me a mommy. you are the only one who could ever say that.
you are my first. my most amazing. my most beautiful. daughter whom i adore.
you are mine. and. someday i will get to finish this love story. i will get to hold you, love you, kiss you and continue this journey of being your mama. we wont miss a second baby. it will be like minutes passed. oh how great that day will be. i want that day more than i could want anything else. i want/need/long for you.
the emotion cant be put into words. the only thing i can say is thank you for being mine. thank you for coming in my life. thank you for letting me be your mom.
as much as i want you to come hold me. today. all i can ask of you is to play. run and jump. sing and dance. find a new friend. spin in circles and don't think about a thing. soak up the sun and know you will never have to stop. be happy. be free. take a breath and live.

we brought you lunch today

and a few dozen balloons

we laughed, talked, cried and took a mini nap with you.

we sent you lots of kisses

i dream of you everyday. i pray your happy. i believe your free.
that's all i could ask for today. you have given me more than i could ever ask for in a lifetime.
I'm missing you terribly. my arms are heavy without you in them. the tears come without warning and never seem to stop- but- to know your in heaven gives me enough strength to keep breathing.
i love you more than you could ever imagine.
love you mrw
love you forever and ever
happy YOU day!
love... Mom



starnes family said...

Beautifully written. Thinking about you during Mother's Day.

Cox Family said...

Happy Mother's Day Kendra!!

Jenni said...

Happy Mother's Day sweetie. Thinking of you!

Chels said...

Thought of you so much on Mothers Day and thought about what an amazing mother you are and what an inspiration you are to me and many others. Happy Mothers Day Kendra you truly are an inspiration to me.
Much love, Chels

Nichole said...

Happy Mothers Day Kendra! Thought of you yesterday. You are an inspirational mom. You make me try harder to be a better mom!

Anonymous said...

Kendra- We have never met but I stumbled across your blog a few months ago and have been reading ever since. I have wanted to leave comments in the past but never thought it was appropriate. However, I found myself thinking a lot about you and your sweet Makenzie yesterday and just wanted to say Happy Mother's Day to you. I think about your story everyday and because of it I strive to be a better mom, sister, friend, wife, etc. Thank you for being such a great example, even to a stranger like me.

Alerie said...

Kendra this is so beautiful!! I love how you said it was HER day because SHE made it a YOU day. I have never thought of it that way, but it is so true. I thought about you a lot yesterday and I just want to thank you for being such an amazing inspiration to me and to many others. You are such a wonderful mommy!! Happy Mother's Day!!

Melissa said...

You are a remarkable Mother! You make me be a better mom because so many of us (before we were introduced to your story) took our children for granted. I never knew to enjoy the little things, such as blowing little fart noises on their tummies lol. Thank you for sharing your story with us. May god continue strengthening you each and every day.


Emma said...

Once again you amaze me! I hope yesterday was a day filled with love...what a loving way to think of Kenzie, making it 'her day' too. You are so right, we wouldn't be Mom's without them so it truly is their day...and I am glad you were able to see the sun shining and know she is in Heaven, soaking it up, sending you love, laughing and dancing. That is true because of you, because you are selfless and a loving Mom...thanks for being you and sharing your story and your sweet Kenzie with us. Love and hugs, Em

Tara Bennett said...

What a sweet tribute to a sweet little girl. YOU are an amazing mother and I hope you had a good day. xo

Anonymous said...

You are an amazing mother, I've never met anyone so selfless in my life

FROGGITY! said...

gorgeous!! this was precious and sweet.

Brian and Rebecca Nate said...

Kendra, I read this poem on one of my friends' blogs the other day. She has a son with SMA and she just had a baby that had low muscle tone that only lived for 23 days. Anyway, she blogged this and I thought it was so sweet and would share:

A sweet little child, at a party one day,
discovered a broken one and with a smile said,
"I'll take it you see, I know my Daddy can fix anything,
and soon it will be good as new."
And once perhaps, in Heaven one day,
when bodies were being given away,
A sweet little child, discovered a broken one,
and with a smile said,
"I'll take it, you see, I know my Father can
fix anything and someday it will be,
good as new."

My friend is Gayle Johnson, and their blog is


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