Wednesday, December 28, 2011

--- Christmas Still

I have so much to catch up on.
my oh my.
I am having some serious delays due to being deathly ill and lacking any form of motivation.
I am trying to keep up on my blog before I forget the details but alas it is the 28th and I have already forgotten anything that has happened before this morning. Okay I don't even remember this morning.
I am getting through the days in a giant fog and finally gave in and went to the doctor this afternoon.
and what does the doc say?
Umm... You have a virus of some kind. You have way to much stress in life. You need to sleep... and your thyroid meds might be off so lets draw some blood so we can get that all worked out.
It might not have helped that literally the moment he came in the room and asked what he could help me with I had a break down and just started balling. He scooted his chair against the wall in a desperate attempt to get away from the crazy, crying mess in front of him. We had never met before so within 5.5 seconds of him even getting a glace at my face it was already buried in tears and snot. I was able to pour my soul to this doc (who by the way had really stinky breath) and he might have caught half the words I blubbered out before he offered me some prescriptions and wanted to draw my blood. Guess his way to get the crazies out of his office quick is to offers drugs :)
Well I went down the hall to get my blood drawn and the precious little girl warned me that she isn't great at drawing blood but she will try. Of course that made me tense up immediately. So I stared across the room while she SWIRLED around that damn needle. I seriously almost puked. After only 2 failed attempts she decided she was done and asked me to come back in a day or 2 for someone else to draw my blood. The poor girl felt horrible and I cant imagine trying to draw someones blood so I smiled, thanked her and left.
... Not sure if ill go back. I think I have some kind of virus but mainly I am stressed and having anxiety beyond measures. So my real fix needs to be a night alone with the hubs and maybe a hot bath. and a stiff drink never hurts.

Well anyway. enough of that. I thought while I upload a million more photos I would answer this cute little Christmas quiz while watching The Holiday. so enjoy and ill catch up on the rest of my blogging soon enough.

1. Egg nog or hot chocolate? Either... 
2. Does Santa wrap presents or just sit them under the tree? Santa has not been to our house yet. But I don't think he will be wrapping gifts for this house.
3. Colored lights on tree/house or white? White. 
4. Do you hang mistletoe? No. I have no idea where to even get it!
5. When do you put your decorations up? In years past the weekend after Thanksgiving. This year--- The beginning of November. I couldn't wait. I wanted my tree in my house.
6. What is your favorite holiday dish? Turkey or Roast!
7. Favorite holiday memory as a child? Christmas story on Christmas Eve and opening Jammies
8. When and how did you learn the truth about Santa? I have no idea. I honesty don't even remember believing in him but I'm sure I did at some point.
10. How do you decorate your Christmas tree? I have kept my tree exactly the same as it was given to me. This amazing group of girls made our tree last year for the festival of trees and some anonymous angel bought it and donated it back to us! Seriously Its a true story and I will forever treasure it. I have added our special ornaments but nothing else has moved. Its all wired on.
11. Snow! Love it or dread it? Love it. I love winter as long as there is snow. But I hate when there is no snow and its just cold.
12. Can you ice skate? Not well.
13. Do you remember your favorite gift?  Anything from Ryan.
14. What’s the most important thing about the holidays for you? Being with family and bringing happiness to others
15. What is your favorite holiday dessert? Gingerbread cookies
16. What is your favorite holiday tradition? Sub for Santa/ Angel tree...
17. What tops your tree? Angel
18. Which do you prefer: giving or receiving? GIVING!
19. Candy canes: are yummy.
20. Favorite Christmas show? The Grinch or Polar Express
21. Saddest Christmas song? First Lullaby/ Silent Night. Makes me cry every time thinking about Makenzie.
22. What is your favorite Christmas song? First Lullaby/ Silent Night. Makes me think of where Kenzie is.
23. What is your favorite Christmas ornament? Every single one of my angel ones.

Well that was fun. Guess Christmas is over so I can get over the festivities but for me its still Christmas until January 31st. and to be honest. I am not sure when ill take my tree down. Don't be surprised if its in our Valentine pictures.


Auntie EM said...

Hey leave your tree up as long as you like. Me? I put mine up about two weeks ago and ready to get it back down soon. The kids put theirs up but they didn't put absolutely no decorations on it, except two little things made by the baby at the daycare. I call them "grinchy Clause." Hope the New Year brings you and Ryan your hearts desires. Cute answers to the Christmas questions. Hope to see you soon. AND...I hope you get feeling better soon. Get some rest, chill out, take a deep breathe, and take life one day, one minute, or one second at a time, if necessary. Love ya Auntie M

Pol said...

Hope you feel better soon :)

In the UK it's traditional to keep your tree up until 12th night (6th Jan) - but trees have to be down then or imps come in the night to spoil your milk!

brigette said...

Hope you start feeling better quick!! Your anwsers were fun. Looks like your Christmas was blessed as well. Praying for you always and thinking of you and Kenzie all the time!! Wishing along with you for little miracle! Love ya girl

Emma said...

I hope you feel better soon. I am fighting a lovely cold as well, tis the season I guess! I love your tree, what an incredible job they did on it and I can see why you don't want to change anything about it-it's beautiful!
Take care of you, get lots of rest and hope you feel better quickly,Hugs Em

Robin said...

I'm sorry you're not feeling well lately. I wish you had had a better experience at the Dr's office too. I'm praying for you and Ryan always!

Emmi Morrison said...

Hello my fellow Anxiety blogger! lol I love reading your blog and cherish your honesty. I have had a similar experience in a docs office, which is why I laughed out loud when I read your post. Here is what I would suggest for the anxiety lovely girl:
Zoloft-Klonopin-Glass of Wine and sit down and watch "Bridesmaids." It works for me EVERY time! Hugs to ya! Oh and you CAn drink even though you may be taking antidepressant....I have tested it.

Kris said...

It was only after they finally diagnosed my low thyroid that the infertility treatments worked for us and I got pregnant right away. Hoping this might be the key to a new little life for you!


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