Trackers 2nd Party.

 Trackers 1st Washington Party was amazing... It was a hard one to measure up to. We had planned a second party in Utah for family on Trackers actual birthday. It was suppose to be at my Moms house in her backyard but a few days before his party the weather was not looking good. It was suppose to storm all day. I was able to reserve the clubhouse at my sisters apartment so we made a few changes and decided to have it there instead. My Mum and I baked, cooked and decorated for a few hours before his party started. None of the decor came together like I had hoped. Maybe it was because it was already used and than stuffed in boxes and traveled across a few states. I don't know. The lighting was horrible so pictures didn't turn out... but it worked.

The people we love came. We had tons of food. Tons of candy. and Tracker had a ball.

The candy bar was full of all the same candy plus a few extra items. 

I don't know what I was thinking but even after 2 parties we walked away with SOO much candy. I think I ordered enough for thousands.

If you can't feel how exciting and fun and non stop this party was through these pictures... You are crazy. We did the Photo Booth again and also a piñata. The kids went crazy. Tracker sat under it and just laughed. He held like 2 things the entire time and was just laughing in the middle of everyone.

I couldn't stop laughing how funny he was. This little boy was showered with soooo much love and attention from every single person in that room the entire day. We even were surprised that my sister Lisa and her family made the trip from Idaho. I was shocked when they came through the door and nearly cried. I was so happy.

As things were winding down Tracker found himself his favorite treat and made himself comfortable in the corner. This kid. Its a good thing it was his birthday.

We shared a little of his birthday with sister by sending balloons. When we left the big #2 balloon go it kept flipping around and around. It would be a #2 then a #5. I thought it was kind of cool since Kenzie is 5 and Tracker is 2. Hopefully she thought that was pretty fun as well.

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There are a few reasons I created a different blog. The main reason being I felt the need to control what others saw in our everyday life. Certain people actually. Mainly my Dad. I didn't feel like he would hurt us or do something bad. I think it was more a small way to take control of something I never had control of my entire life. I also wanted a little break of the nasty commenter's. I was so annoyed at the amount of "anonymous" people that felt they needed to judge, degrade and just leave terrible messages that was usually not even close to the truth. Over the last few months a lot has changed for me. My Dad died. I have really worked on myself and figuring out what is important and right in life. and being okay with who I am, which comes out so much in my blog.

I love blogging. Its been a huge source of therapy. An outlet. Writing has been such a big part of my life these last 5 years. Now that blogs are on the outs and not many people update theirs or even read them anymore I have to say I have no desire to stop. Mainly because I do this for myself. For my family. I love the relationships I have built and friends I have met. There are many people that have helped me during some of my hardest of hard days and some that continue to help me laugh and smile every time I read their latest post. 

All social media can be bad for me. and for others I think. There is so much comparing. Far to many putting each other down instead of raising each other up. Too many people hiding behind their computer saying horrible things based on a small amount of what people put online. I am guilty of comparing myself, my son and my husband to others. Thinking I am not enough. My marriage is not enough and my son is not nearly smart enough. It can be so good for the soul and yet so bad for your heart and mind. I am always trying to balance what is right for me. Taking breaks here and there and limiting my screen time. I am always reminding myself that the small amount of what people put online. That 1 picture. Says nothing compared to the big picture. I myself am guilty of this. Taking a cute picture with a cute caption making it look as if life is bliss when in reality it was the only moment that day I wasn't a beasty Mum and my son wasn't causing havoc.

I am thankful for this blog. I am thankful for the mini vacation from this blog when I felt a little more privacy was needed. I am thankful that I can keep this blog forever. That I can print it out each year (after far too many hours editing the damn book) and keep it for myself and my family for years to come. After being away for so long I have deiced to come back to this blog. It is where I began and its where I want to continue. I will keep it updated fairly regularly. Get ready for Tracker overload. I am not doing the double blog any longer because its been more of a pain to tell people that this blog is where you can go to read and learn about the leggings and Kenzie but that I update another one... So its easier to keep it as one. 

Not that this is headline news or anything but just a little explanation.

No need to keep checking the other blog. Its pretty much done. 

So hello.

Thanks for continuing to read. 

Feel free to leave comments but be nice. I will not be reading or posting rude or nasty comments so don't waste your time dumb anonymous commenter. 

If you are feeling curious you are welcome to catch up on the last several months on the other blog...