Sunday, December 13, 2009

12/13/2009

To my amazing daughter,

thank you for giving me your life. thank you for loving me and your daddy. how blessed we are to know you and be your parents. your daddy and i have thought and prayed so hard for you esp. over the last couple weeks/days. we know your time is short here on earth and we want you to know these few months have given us more than we could have ever asked for in a lifetime. we are going to miss you beyond words. our hearts are broken and we are not sure how we will even wake up tomorrow with out you. the only thing that is getting us through is knowing your going to be free. please makenzie, go play, run, jump, laugh. we will be thinking about you every second of our day. we will always miss you. we will always love you. come back and visit and watch over all your family and friends here on earth. you are so loved by so many. you have changed the world in this short amount of time. your eyes, smile, spirit have touched so many lives but esp. your dad's and mine. we will send you balloons as much as possible so catch everyone. you forever will live in my heart.
keep dreaming with me muffin.
you are my world, my reason, my heart.
i love you to infinity.

love your mommy and daddy.

61 comments :

FROGGITY! said...

sending lots of love.

i just don't even know what to say, but i just need you to know we're thinking about you. if you ever need anything, please let me know. i certainly will be praying for you all. God bless you and keep you all in this time and always.

treefrog80@gmail.com

sherry said...

i can't say anything else but you have the right heart and souls for this little girl and i know you will always love her as you should. remember the best days not the bad days. I loved having a chance to see her and i was really glad that i saw her awake and was able to let her play with my hands. i will always treasure those moments.

love always aunt sherry

TMI Tara said...

We love you and are praying for you. May you be blessed and comforted and feel love from above.

Anonymous said...

We Love you and are here .. hugs you so tight ~

derek, allie, emma , & bradyn said...

Makenzie Rye,

You are beautiful, amazing, precious, the light in all of us, and our angel. Thank you so much for sharing your short time with us - we cherish every moment and smile we we were lucky enough to share with you. We love you so much!

Anonymous said...

Ryan and Kendra;
even though i only had a couple of chances to see Kenize i relized how amazing this child is. i know i may not understand what your going throw but just know she will always be looking down on you. remember the good days not the bad, think about her beautiful blue eyes, her long fingers and toes, the way she made you guys smile. she has made me think about the way no matter what a child is going throw they will always have a huge smile at the end of the day.
just keep this in your mind that she changed your life forever.
Throw all the tears, smiles, laughs, pictures, and everything else will get you throw alot. im sorry that you only had to choises with Kenize but think about this,
she will be happy not sad, she'll smile not frown, and instead of crying she'll laugh.
Just know im here for you no matter what! i love you all and you three have changed everything in my life. Remember im thinking about you everyday and there's not a day that goes by without remebering this experience..
if you ever need me im just a phone call away, stay strong <33
-nichole davison.

katie said...

Sending all our love. The Simon Family

Molly said...

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
i am so sorry.

malory said...

Your strength and courage are amazing. I dont even know what else to say, this breaks my heart. You are all in constantly in my thoughts

michelle snarr said...

How lucky and chosen you were to be able to have such a darling little girl enter your lives. You were the parents who could love her the most. She was sent to you with love and I know that you loved her every minute of every day. You have been in our hearts and thoughts for a while now, and you'll remain there for a long time to come. Thank you for sharing all of your feelings and pictures with us. Much love - The Snarr's

Anonymous said...

Kendra,

I'm really sorry for your loss, there are no words to express how anyone feels. If you ever need a shoulder to cry on, I'm here. We have a new angel watching over all of us. I pray that your family will make it through.

Love,
Heather McGuire

Katie Danner said...

I really love you Kendra. What a precious soul beyond words to come into your lives. I am sending all my prayers and heartfelt feelings. All my love to you, ryan and precious little mackenzie.

Emma said...

Beautiful. There are no words to ease the pain but know you are being thought of, prayed for and loved, even by those you don't even know. Hugs, Em

Anonymous said...

You let her go as gently as possible, and set her free from her body's pains. She can still be yours forever, and in the meantime i know she is safe and happy, and she is well-cared for till you see her again. What a blessing for you to look forward to, I can see you love her with every breath and ounce of your souls.
She is such a faithful spirit she needed no earthly test. What an amazing honor to have her for your daughter.
I feel your grief, and I wish I could ease it. Anger, frustration, grief, sorrow, they are all normal things to feel right now. But somewhere in your heart, hold on to the promise that all things will work together for good to them that love God, and that He can indeed heal all wounds. I know He can. Even this one.
I wish I could express myself better, i have cried all day thinking of what you must be going through today. I am praying for peace for you. If you ever need to talk, sometime, down the road, I can listen. I wish I knew what else to do.
love,

Jeanne Groberg

Anonymous said...

My beautiful cousins...There are no words I can write to to ease all of the pain you must be feeling. Makenzie is such a bright light in so many lives and will only grow bringhter with time. Her smile and love is so amazing and she will always be with you. I love you very much and if you ever need anyone to yell at, scream to, cry on...I am here. Love Kam

Anonymous said...

Ryan and Kendra,
You are both amazing parents. Makenzie is so lucky to have you. My thoughts and prayers are with you at this time.
Love,
Loretta Neil

Anonymous said...

Ryan and Kendra and Makenzie
We can't even begin to tell you how much you are all loved. It has been a joy to be part of Makenzie's life. She will go on and life too will move on but she will always be there for all of us. When I see a balloon I will always think of her, when I see the smile on a baby's face I will see her. Revel in the joy she brought you two and always know she loves you. She will be waiting for you to come.

You can as a ray of sunshine
With gladness in your eyes and heart
You came as a beginning
With a family who was waiting for you
You gave us all the blessing of seeing life bloom again
With each passing day you filled our hearts with love
You gave all that you could to come to earth
With those you left behing knowing you would soon return
You wre willing to come to show the way
With you came the hope
You would one day be
With you we could see the joys of life, the fulfillment of dreams
You knew when you made your chose it would be short but
With you it didn't matte
You would give all you could to be here now and then return to waiting arms
With you the joy would be short but would be fufillng to those who would love you
You knew it would be hard and it would be hardest on those you would leave behind
With gladness in your eyes and heart you return home and wait for those who have loved you the most
You knew when you started it would be short but knew too the joy you would give to those waiting for you
With you will be our dreams and one day we all will share them with you
You came as a ray of sunshine with hope and joy beyond measure
With you goes our love and with patience wait for us to come

We love you all so much
May the pain of this experience pass and may you feel the joy always that this little girl has given you. I know we will cherish her always.
Love
Byron and Mona

Devon said...

There is nothing I can say that will ease the pain, so I will say nothing. You are all in our prayers.

Melanie Parker said...

We are thinking and praying for you. May the Lord bless you with peace and may sweet Kenzie's beautiful eyes and memories be forever a treasured memory. You both are amazing parents and people. Sending love~

Melanie Parker said...
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Chanse and Janell said...

Ryan, Kendra and Makenzie Rye,
You are all in my thoughts.
Much love to you.
Janell

starnes family said...

Thinking about you and the love you have for this amazing child. You should be proud of your strength and clarity during this very difficult time.

Hugs from Kansas.

-Casey

Karen Schaefer said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you .

Karen Schaefer

Holly said...

Your family is in my family's thoughts and prayers. May God provide you peace and comfort in this time. Makenzie is a beautiful little girl, and she will continue to inspire so many thanks to your words Kendra.

Benjamin and Jennie said...

What a stuff, emotional, trying time your family is going through. we are praying for your comfort. God bless you!

Diane Lewis said...

Kendra and Ryan....there are no words that come out right. Our heavenly Father gave you a precious blessing in Kenzie and even tho she couldn't stay long she touched so many. She will forever be with all of us. You are amazing and in my heart and prayers. God bless you and keep you and give you comfort and continued strength.

KendraJane said...

You are in our prayers - your beautiful daughter has touched so many lives and will always be remembered.

Linds said...

Let me add with all these voices how much I love you. I am grateful for families. I am forever touched by Kenzie and her strength. My prayers are with you.

Amanda said...

Many thoughts and prayers are with you during this difficult time. I can't imagine the heartache you are feeling right now; I pray that Heavenly Father will be there to comfort and hold you...I know he will be..

I hope you don't mind I've been following your blog since my mom told me about your sweet family. You and Ryan are amazing, your precious little daughter will always be with you.

Much Love,
Amanda Colledge (Loretta's daughter.)

Anonymous said...

Kendra, I have thought about this hymn so many times when I think about you and your family. It's #128 When Faith Endures.
I will not doubt I will not fear Gods love and strength are always near. His promised gift helps me to find an inner strength and peace of mind. I give the father willingly my trust, my prayers,humility. His spirit guides; his love assures that fear departs when faith endures. Also #299 Children of our Heavenly Father. I won't wright all the lyrics but you can look them up. I hope they bring you peace of mind that your doing all and the best you can. I love you and I know that you will get through this I know you are strong and ryan is to. Remember we are never given something that we can't handle with his help.

Take care of yourself,

Love, Heidi

Stacy said...

Kendra -
I found your blog through another friend of mine who posted about your family. My thoughts and prayers are with your family right now. Especially with you. No one understands it, no one gets it, but as mothers we can only imagine. Your Kenzie is a beautiful little girl, and you will have her with you always.

ML said...

It has been heart-wrenching following your blog. I'm so sorry for your loss. I know you will see your perfect little girl again some day, but my heart aches to think how terribly you must miss her. Our thoughts and prayers are with you. I admire your strength and courage.

LL's Creations said...

I am so sorry for your loss, it is the greatest loss of all. I admire your strength through everything. Whenever I see a balloon in the sky I will always think of Kenzie and smile just thinking about her running to catch it.

scott said...

Hi Kendra,

I don't know if you remember meeting me - I am Candice's husband, Scott. That doesn't matter. What matters is your love, Ryan's love and Makenzie's love. I know that someday the three of you will help lots of people to realize that your special love is what gives each one of us the power to be who we are meant to be. Makenizie will forever be meant to be an inspiration to all of us. That is something that will never be forgotten, never be lost. You have been wonderful parents to her, and she the most incredible daughter. I wish you all the very best and want you to know that your courage, your love and your dedication are lessons for every one of us hold on to and cherish forever. Candice and I have been deeply moved by you all and cannot express sufficiently what we are feeling. But please know that your daughter has touched everyone and you have all made us better for this.

With much love and caring,

Scott and Candice

Anonymous said...

Im sorry for your loss,
i have no idea how this feels but i know how it feels to lose someone but just know me and my family are here for you every step of the way.
-The Davisons,
Jim. Cathy. Lexi. Nichole.

Anonymous said...

You don't know me but I've been reading your blog these last few weeks and praying for and thinking about you. I don't know if it will help, but Stephanie Waite lost her daughter last year and wrote every day about her thoughts and grief (http://adailyscoop.blogspot.com/). Maybe it will help a little to know you're not alone.

Alerie said...
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Alerie said...

You, Ryan and Makenzie are AMAZING!! You all have changed my life FOREVER and I know that you have changed many other people's lives too. Makenzie was a perfect, beautiful little princess!! I will never forget her and your family and I don't even know you personally. I am glad I got to know all of you through your blog. Thank you for sharing!! Makenzie could not have been blessed with better parents!! She sure knew what LOVE was and there is no doubt in my mind about that. Your little family has constantly been in my prayers each and every day and you will continue to be. Much love to you!!

Alerie

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Summer said...

Kendra, I cannot imagine the pain you are feeling but just know how much you touched my families lives. I always knew you'd be an amazing mother, and it sounds as though Kenzie was the perfect daughter. I pray for nothing but the best for you and Ryan. I am thinking about you always. I wish there was more I could do. You truly inspire me to be a better person.

Chari White said...

Kendra! This is your cousin Chari... I had no idea...
Thank you for allowing us all to be here...
Your words and your daughter's life and teaching are quite powerful and healing to any parents who have lost their own child and still need to heal, or even to those of us with children who need to be humbled and stopped in our tracks to regard our children not only as individuals who have their own specific purposes here, but to also grab them, tickle them, hold them soooo tight and yell out loud, "I love you!" so they FEEL how grateful we are to be their parent! No matter when my children choose to go, can I tonight, say that Mackenzie Rye Webster blessed my own children with a more grateful and attentive and loving Mom??? Yes!! Thank You Mackenzie...
Thank you Kendra...
Thank you Ryan... You are all great teachers

Please call me as I would love to listen and support you all in any way through the coming days, weeks, months.
214-490-1635

Jim said...

Dear Kendra & Ryan,
We are so sorry for the loss of Makenzie but rest assured it is only temporary. You will be together again someday. You are very special parents. God would only send such a special soul to special parents that were strong enough to go through what you have.We are so proud of you both for the maturity you have shown the rest of us. We love you both like you are our kids and you will always be a part of our family.
And Ryan if you ever need to talk to me. I promise you won't have to ask me if I have eyes in the back of my head.
With all my love,
Jim McGee

Gaspegirl said...

God bless and keep Kenzie. Sending our hugs and prayers,

Marjorie (Gaspegirl)

Anonymous said...

Oh Kendra, I am so sorry for your loss! There really are no words for what you and Ryan are going through, I wish by some way we could all help you and your family through this horrible time. She is in a much better place filled everything she could possibly want and need, just waiting for you and Ryan to join her again one day.

chelsieaw said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. That you may find peace within your hearts and know what amazing parents you are so selfless, so strong, and so loving. She will forever be your gaurdian angel watching over you from heaven above. Thank you for sharing your most amazing beautiful daughter with me.

May god bless you and help you get through this difficult time in your lives.

Chelsie

Samuel Smith said...

Kendra, I am sorry to hear about what has happened, but be strong as you always are and continue to love and cherish your daughter as she was, live for her and above all, think of her time she spent with you and Ryan, think of the happy times and enjoy the memories you made......

Love, Sam from Work

Anonymous said...

I think of the emotions you must be going through and can't even grasp what it must be like. I want you both to know we love you and would do anything to help ease your pain. Kenzie is a beautiful angel like her mother. She will watch over you both and always be with you in your heart.

With love,
Troy, Kristen, Ryland & Kiana

Our Family said...

I am a stranger to you but I don't feel like a stranger. I have been following your blog for a while (I found it through a neighbor's blog). Upon immediately reading your blog my thoughts became consumed with your story. I have thought of your sweet family for hours and days. I have prayed for you and will continue to pray for you. I can't imagine the pain you have gone through.

By reading your words you feel so connected to you guys. By just simply reading your blog it has certainly changed me forever. I truly know that your sweet baby was an angel with so much strength and power that we here on earth couldn't understand her divine role, even though it was so short. I think of how special your daughter was to truly be willing to come to this earth and knowing that her trail would be very hard and that she would bring a lot of sorrow. But how special of a soul was she to say I will go and face this with everything I have. That makes her truly a special daughter of God.

I know it is hard not to question why. But I know that you will be with her again and just imagine the reunion in heaven. Again I can't imagine all that you have gone through but know your daughter had a special purpose and has changed people's lives forever. May you find the comfort and peace you need to have at this time and always.

With Much Love,
Emily Chidester

caitlin and brinton said...

Many condolences to you and your family.

Stacey said...

Kendra and Ryan,

I cannot even imagine the difficulty and pain that you are going through right now. I am so completely sorry for you. I have been praying for you and your story has changed my life forever. Your little one was an angel before she ever left the earth.
Sending love your way,
Stacey

Emily said...

Hello...your blog was brought to my attention through a friend of a friend...to send prayers your way. They have been sent!! I couldn't stop reading your blog, I couldn't stop crying, sobbing. I admire your strength, your love and your strong strong daughter. I am a RN at Cinti Childrens and work with A LOT of SMA babies--I am so grateful for each one I get the pleasure to meet and care for, I fall in love with each of them. I have three of my own-9, 16 months and 4 months--today I hugged each a little longer, kissed each one a little more (if that is possible!),and loved a little deeper after reading your blog. I cry for you and for your heart, for you loss. I am sorry. Much love to you. You have touched me and will be remembered.

Lorraine Wood said...

Kendra and Ryan -
Makenzie did change the world, she is amazing, as is her parents.
I am so sorry her life on earth was short, she will be laughing, running and playing in heaven.
we love you all very much, and our thoughts and prayers are with you.
You are truly an amazing family, and we are blessed knowing you.
Thank you so much for your blogs, and allowing us the blessing to be involved with Makenzie's life, we are blessed and will be better for your courage, and love.
Love Lorraine, Samantha and Kelcey

Bennett Bunch said...

Kendra and Ryan,
I am Oby's brother's (Jamie Bennett) wife. I have looked at your blog every so often but when Oby told us what was going on I started to follow you everyday. There are no words to make you feel better and I can't even imagine what you are going through. You two are in our hearts and prayers.
Your little girl changed so many peoples lives including mine.
I pray for your comfort and peace to come.

The Pachuilo Family said...

Kendra,
I am so sorry for your loss. You and Kenzie have changed my life in so many ways. Thank you for sharing this journey with me and so many others. You are an amazing person.
I pray that you will feel peace and comfort from our Heavenly Father. He loves you and your precious little girl. You will be able to see her again.

Joe&JessCurfew said...

Dear Kendra and Ryan,
We have never met however I feel like I know you after following your blog so intently. I work with Marcie Jaques and she has been passing around the info for your fundraiser.
I just wanted to say you two are absoultely amazing people. Your strength is incredible. I am so deeply sorry about your loss. My heart aches for you and your family. Our family has spent a great deal of time praying for you and yours. I know there is nothing we can say to make it any better. You two were blessed with a very beautiful daughter who has returned home to Heavenly Fathers loving arms. At least you can know now she'll be running and playing and watching over you. You have to be amazing people to be blessed with a daughter that incredible. Your strength through this all is enough proof of why she was given to you two.
We wish you peace and comfort in this hard time.
Love the Curfews

(ps when you get the enchilladas they are fully cooked just frozen so just reheat them in the oven!)

Anonymous said...

Kendra,

I have truly been touched by your sweet spirit and I know that you were chosen to be the earthly mother to a beautiful angel that needed to come to earth only for her body. She is now a Celestial being watching over and protecting you and Ryan and bringing you peace and comfort. May you feel the sweet Spirit of our loving Father in Heaven with you during the next step in your life. Kenzie is looking down on you now and praying for you to know that she is safe and that she loves you.
Kaleen Hale

Tristan said...

I can't even imagine the heartache you must feel right now! I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet baby. I pray you find peace and comfort until you can be with her again.

Emma said...

I am sorry this is so long, but wanted to share it with you and don't have an email address.....
The Brave Little Soul By: John Alessi

Not too long ago in Heaven there was a little soul who took wonder in observing the world. He especially enjoyed the love he saw there and often expressed this joy with God. One day however the little soul was sad, for on this day he saw suffering in the world. He approached God and sadly asked, "Why do bad things happen; why is there suffering in the world?" God paused for a moment and replied, "Little soul, do not be sad, for the suffering you see, unlocks the love in people's hearts." The little soul was confused. "What do you mean," he asked. God replied, "Have you not noticed the goodness and love that is the offspring of that suffering? Look at how people come together, drop their differences and show their love and compassion for those who suffer. All their other motivations disappear and they become motivated by love alone." The little soul began to understand and listened attentively as God continued, "The suffering soul unlocks the love in people's hearts much like the sun and the rain unlock the flower within the seed. I created everyone with endless love in their heart, but unfortunately most people keep it locked up and hardly share it with anyone. They are afraid to let their love shine freely, because they are afraid of being hurt. But a suffering soul unlocks that love. I tell you this - it is the greatest miracle of all. Many souls have bravely chosen to go into the world and suffer - to unlock this love - to create this miracle for the good of all humanity."

Just then the little soul got a wonderful idea and could hardly contain himself. With his wings fluttering, bouncing up and down, the little soul excitedly replied. "I am brave; let me go! I would like to go into the world and suffer so that I can unlock the goodness and love in people's hearts! I want to create that miracle!" God smiled and said, "You are a brave soul I know, and thus I will grant your request. But even though you are very brave you will not be able to do this alone. I have known since the beginning of time that you would ask for this and so I have carefully selected many souls to care for you on your journey. Those souls will help you create your miracle; however they will also share in your suffering. Two of these souls are most special and will care for you, help you and suffer along with you, far beyond the others. They have already chosen a name for you". God and the brave soul shared a smile, and then embraced.In parting, God said, "Do not forget little soul that I will be with you always. Although you have agreed to bear the pain, you will do so through my strength. And if the time should come when you feel that you have suffered enough, just say the word, think the thought, and you will be healed."

Thus at that moment the brave little soul was born into the world, and through his suffering and God's strength, he unlocked the goodness and love in people's hearts. For so many people dropped their differences and came together to show their love. Priorities became properly aligned. People gave from their hearts. Those that were always too busy found time. Many began new spiritual journeys, some regained lost faith - many came back to God. Parents hugged their children tighter. Friends and family grew closer. Old friends got together and new friendships were made. Distant family reunited, and every family spent more time together. Everyone prayed. Peace and love reigned. Lives changed forever. It was good. The world was a better place. The miracle had happened. God was pleased

Thinking and praying for you, your family and friends. Your story and Kenzie's loving, and fighting spirit has touched so many lives and I have no doubt will continue to do so forever! Love Emma

Nicole said...

I am so sorry for your loss. Of course you know you where choosen for her parents even though it was only a short time. My prayers and thoughts are with you.

Jenna and Mike said...

I know you dont know me, but your daughter has made me a better person. You both are amazing parents and people! I will keep you in my prayers always, and I will be sending Makenzie a balloon every chance I get. Thank you for being the people you are and having such a beautiful little angel to amaze all of us. God bless you! xoxoxo

griggsy said...

I don't know you personally but have been following your blog for a while. I want you to know how sorry I am that you and your family have to go through this. You are a strong woman and have so much courage. Kenize will always be by your side. She will always know how much you love her. She loves you too. I will be praying for you and your family.

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