not sure what to write today.
had a good weekend with great people.
finally finished signing up for classes- ahh school begins tomorrow!
designed kenzie's headstone.
*will post pics when they get it done*
today- my sister jill and i went to church for a bit. i got to hold that super cute little girl that i talked about earlier- the same girl that reminds me of little kenzie. her parents let me hug her, smile at her, play with her and feed her... that was weird... feeding her. only because it made me remember the last time i got to feed makenzie. it was November 19th. she got a feeding tube placed in her nose that day then her gtube later put in.
no more bottles. no more similac. no more sterilizing. no more nipples. no more holding her. no more rocking her. what a strange feeling.
Wednesday will mark 1 month since i last saw her eyes.
Sunday will mark 2 months since my baby was home.
next Monday kenzie would turn 6 months- half a year old!
next Tuesday will mark 2 months since i last feed my baby.
I'm not so sure about this week. maybe i can just skip it.
instead of starting to ball my eyes out right now I'm going to change the subject-
i have been trying to think of a way to thank all of you out there. thank all of our family, friends, neighbors, everyone for everything you have all done for us.
there is nothing to repay all of you. nothing sufficient enough.
the amount of love, prayers, good thoughts, hugs--- i just cant express how much everything means to us. Everyone of you have touched our lived. Thank you for the gifts- they help us remember our baby. Thank you for the letters, they give us hope and make us feel peace.
Thank you for treats, food, magazines- everything. We are so blessed to know all of you.
Thank you for all your comments. I know I haven't responded to you and I hope to soon but please know every comment is wanted. We read them- often. Sometimes over and over. We listen to you all and take your advice. Thank you for loving us- Thank you for bringing us into your home. Thank you for crying with us. Thank you for thinking of our beautiful little girl. Thank you for not forgetting her. She was sent here for a purpose, she was suppose to help others, make this world better. I wish more than anything that she continues to do that. She always will for me. I will always learn something new from her, she has made me stronger and changed my life. I hope her spirit can help everyone else out there to.
Thank you again- EVERY ONE OF YOU! You are all family. We love you all.
** so much for not balling my eyes out, happened anyway- because of you all **