Thursday, October 21, 2010

He gets to hold her for now.

Life is so complex. There are so many rules. So many obstacles. So many dreams and goals.
I have struggled with the "religion/belief" issue seriously my whole life. Wondering what is real, what is not. What I agree with, what I question, If there is something more.
I started this complex thinking at a young age. I think it was more because of the environment I was in and really questioning if this was what the plan was for my life. My thinking and beliefs have come a long way.
In the last 23 years I have never grown as much spiritually as I have in the past couple weeks. 
Its still hard. I still question and I am still not totally sure.
But I am more sure now, than I have ever been before!
To know she is safe. To know she is missing me just as much as I'm missing her. To know we will be together again. I just want to hold her. Kiss her. Smell her. I want to look into her eyes and know I really will never ever have to say goodbye again.
For now.
He is doing that. He is doing my job.
He gets to hold her for now. 

Hold her tight, Keep her smiling and remind her of us!


Found this picture and had to have it. I see it everyday and each time I walk past it,
I thank him for keeping her until I can go home.

15 comments :

Shawna said...

What a beautiful picture Kendra. It brings tears to me eyes. How wonderful that He is holding Makenzie until you "go home" to her. And how wonderful that you are growing and that your words seem filled with more peace in recent weeks. I think He is truly helping and holding you as well. Still praying for you on your journey!

Cox Family said...

How wonderful is it to know if we are believers in Jesus Christ we get to go home after we leave this earth to a place that is more beautiful than we could ever imagine! We get to see all our loved ones who have gone before us and to be with them and Him for eternity! Such an amazing feeling of hope to know that when our time comes there is a place waiting for us where there will be no more hurt and no more tears only happiness beyond all belief! Makenzie is there now happy and I know she will be there waiting with open arms...what a amazing day that will be! Keep on growing Kendra, you are an amazing person and I admire you so much! Praying for you as always!

Amy said...

Such a beautiful picture. Where did you find it?

Amy said...

Oh I love that picture!!! I'd love one too...where did you get it?

Anonymous said...

Keep believing, keep hoping, keep praying, keep living. You are right. He is keeping her for now. You WILL see her again. She is always with you. Again I repeat my "mantra" that keeps me going: THE LOVE NEVER ENDS. I know this to be true. It makes me want to do better and be better so I can be with all our loved ones again. It gives me purpose and hope. Then, when I have have completed my mission here on earth, then comes the unspeakable joy. Love ya Sweety and your Baby Girl too. Auntie M

TMI Tara said...

I am so happy you have that photo. It gives me chills. Kenz is most definitely in good hands. Love you

♥ Stephan & Michelle ♥ said...

That photo is soooo beautiful!! And Im glad it gives you some comfort. Because your totally right shes in good hands, intil you can see her again. And she is with all your loves ones in heaven to!

Emma said...

So beautiful and I know He is holding her, keeping her warm and happy until you have her in your arms once again. It feels like so long but once you are with her you will be with her for all Eternity...incredible! Love and hugs, Em

Ashley Sullenger said...

beautiful picture, I have one very similar. This post made me really happy. I know it's the place you'll find comfort. Love ya girl!

Devon said...

Beautiful, Kendra. Thank you so much for sharing this. He's holding you too, so you're really not all that far apart.

Jared and Laura said...

Beautiful picture. Beautiful post. You're amazing, Kendra!

AJ and Cindy said...

loved this post, Kendra. thanks for sharing, and you are so right, you will get to see her again!

brigette said...

Your so strong Kendra. That is a beautiful picutre!! I love love love it.

debbie said...

I love this picture, too! It is beautiful. This post is wonderful, too. Thanks for sharing it.

Andrea said...

beautiful picute and so perfect. You are so amazing. I just can't stop telling people about you and how great you are and the baby legs project. Oh and I did not make that cake. I am not nearly that good, but I should've made one. We just got it at walmart. Thatnks for stopping by and saying hi.

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