Thursday, September 29, 2011

Ordered!

Had our last little meeting.
Signed all the papers.
Went home and made the big PURCHASE!

For all of 5 seconds we decided to do the search again just to make sure this was the RIGHT donor.
This time I had Ryan take complete control and do the selection of everything.We read about 25 more profiles. We just didn't feel any of them compared to our guy.It was a rather frightening yet exciting feeling to order 3 vials. To know this is how we will be getting our family. It has been sent overnight to the University and should arrive no later than Friday morning. Then we wait.I will start testing my LH level next week.I cant believe how quick this could happen. I don't want to get my hopes up. But lets me honest... I have already started planning the next 9 months knowing I will be pregnant :)

FYI... If we get pregnant this round my due date will be July 3, 2012.
That's rather close to Ms. Kenzies birthday. Guess I cant expect she will get the whole month of July all to herself.I just pray and pray she can give up her little play buddy for a while. I know it will be hard but I would sure appreciate it Makenzie!

We are excited for the next couple weeks. It will be a whole lot of waiting! Its going to take forever!
I didn't think I would ever say this--- but I am so excited to be pregnant again.
Not necessarily for every single part. Lets face it, pregnancy is really not as beautiful as most would like to say. At least for me. I turn into a man. Belch, Fart, lazy... I get huge and puffy...
But I am so excited to know there is this little life growing in me. That is the time I CAN protect them from everything and take them everywhere. I never have to put them down. Ah... its all just so exciting!


PS. This morning I spilled my coffee in my crotch. And it burned. And I'm still waddling. Its okay to laugh. I did. Right after it happened. If only someone would have filmed it. I went to drink and..... oops.
There must be a hole in my mouth. It just all feel out all over.
It really really hurts.

I'm going to go ice my crotch to get it ready for the upcoming baby implanting.

30 comments :

Jujubee said...

I know you don't *know* me by can I just say how excited I am for you?! I'm going to be praying for you!!! From all I've read I know you are an incredible mother and any child would be blessed to call you Mommy. Go get 'em girl!!! Enjoy the coffee it may be not so yummy once you are preggers...:) ps. Can we still add recipes for your cookbook? I would lOve to add my Christmas Stew. Let me know! Julie

Kaci said...

very excited for you! Although I'm still not exactly sure what you are doing.. Maybe I need to read some older posts or whatever.. Anyway.. hope it all works out! I kind of want to hurry up and do invitro cause I don't want the new baby's bday to be in october or November, cause like you, that's "joshua's month", well at least october. my birthday is in november so its kind of a sad a happy month... anyway Hope everything goes as planned!

Ashley said...

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mireya Garcia said...

BIG HOPE AND BIG WISHES for this amazing thing to come about!!

Mireya Garcia said...

I love your song below and i heard this song :

Fly by Celin Dion...reminded me of ur sweet angel baby

Jackie Koll said...

So excited for you! Hope that it all goes as planned this time around because I know you are jus thrilled that this is all able to be done so quickly :-)

Cheer4braves said...

Im so excited to watch you go on this journey....I hope it happens the first time. You deserve it!!! GOOD LUCK....AND BABYDUST:))

Chantel said...

So excited for you!!! I know what you mean about the nonglamorous side of pregnancy. I'm 30 weeks and waddling around in a walking cast with a sprained ankle. It's not pretty. I can't wait to follow your pregnancy journey.

Tiff@ny said...

Yay!!!!!! I am so excited for you guys! I hope it happens right away!!! I am so excited you guys have chosen this route cause I know how you long to be pregnant again even though pregnancy isn't always that great!;) I am 8 weeks along and having the worst morning sickness. I never got sick with my last so this is a totally new experience for me. I am so looking forward to reading about your journey!;)

Barbi and Jodi said...

Another blog stalker here!!! I have been following for quite some time and I am so excited for you guys!!! This is amazing and I have no doubt God hears and answers your prayers...I know Makenzie has already chosen her sibling!! God bless your family!!!

Em said...

I am so excited for you and Ryan and for the new addition that will join your family....what a lucky little one to have you two for parents!! Thanks for sharing this journey with us, there are so many of us sending you love, hope, and prayers and I know this will happen at exactly the right time and bring the perfect little one into your family! Love and Hugs, Em

Anonymous said...

I am so so so happy for you guys and I will be praying for a healthy pregnancy.

Anonymous said...

You are hilarious! I love the part about turning into a man. (except I still do that stuff and I'm not prego)I hope everything turns out exactly how you picture it. You truly deserve it. You are and will be an amazing mother to this new baby. Nobody will or could love it more then you!
Best of luck!

Malory said...

Awe Kendra Im soooo excited for you!!! You deserve it more than anyone! I'm keeping my fingers, toes, and eyes crossed for you!! :)

Anonymous said...

I just hope you don't abort THIS one too if you find out something is wrong with it like you did with the last one! You already killed 2 babies(taking one off life support and aborting another) you don't even deserve another chance with another precious life; what if you kill that one,too?

Anonymous said...

To anonymous above, you so damn rude! This is so unnessary. People like you don't deserve shit!

Anonymous said...

Seriously how in the world could you say something so awful! You are a HORRIBLE human being. Whatever happened to if you don't have anything nice to say don't saying anything at all! Keep your rude comments to yourself. How dare you judge her! You have no idea of the shoes she has had to walk in. So go back to your miserable life you bitter hag. And stop reading her blog! Kendra, you don't know me. I'm just one of your random followers here in Joplin, Mo. I pray you don't let the above comment get to you! Aside from this rude person, we are all rooting for you! I am 24 with an almost 3 year old and I can't not imagine the pain you and your husband has had to endure! Sending you all the baby dust and preggo vibes in the world! Stay positive girl and keep on keepin' on! Thanks for sharing your story!

Anonymous said...

They kill their babies when they found out something was wrong instead of leaving it with God and he drinks beer; they are NOT good Mormons!I read the blog thinking they were good wholesome Mormons and I was wrong.

Anonymous said...

The truth hurts and God's ways are often not politically correct, easy to hear, popular, or taken very well but it still has to be said.

Anonymous said...

Anon: wow, hater much? I am going to guess you have never had a child who is chronically and crtically ill. I do. I was actually even consulted before they made the decision to let Makenzie go, and I know without a doubt it was done in love. So, until you have a child with a disease like SMARD ( I DO, and I am a Mormon as well) perhaps YOU should act like a good Christian and judge not lest ye be judged. You have no idea what it is like to watch your child lose his strength and know that one day you will probably have to decide when you are going to let him go because of an illness-because you don't want them to live in pain. While my child is the biggest blessing in my life, knowing his fate is a nightmare I wouldn't wish on anyone, even a hater like you. Now go and thank God that you have no idea what that decision was like. Thank your God for that.

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Anonymous said...

Ignore the haters, Kendra. Some people have nothing better to do than to talk about things of which they have no comprehension.

Anonymous said...

To the disgusting anonymous comments written by the "God loving Christian",
1st off you have NO right to judge. Whether you have experienced anything "like" this or not you have NEVER been in Kendras shoes. Ever been in a suffocating hospital room in the intensive care unit and had a doctor tell you that you had two options. Keep your child alive with machines a d watch them get sicker and weaker and one day become a vegetable with their bright mind trapped in their fragile limp body....or 2 let them go natural. I have been given those options....And guess what even I have no room to say I know what this family has been through. My daughter was stronger when given this choice- talking, aware, walking. And even then I was scared to death praying to make the right choice for her. And guess what, people judge me for traching her. Saying I should have let nature take it's course. Well guess what? I knew what my daughter wanted. Knew what God wanted for my daughter. And I have no doubt that the choice I made was the absolute best decision for us but IS absolutely not right for every child. Wow, you really are ignorant to think that YOU know or have any right to judge. I am Mormon as well and if you are too I'm disgusted that you are behaving this way. This is not your place to judge. So go back to your own life and be grateful for the trials you have because obviously you are better than all of us huh? Reading your comment literally made me throw up in my mouth. Luckily I am not going to waste any more of my time after posting this judging YOU and your nasty comments. Kendra, I love you, we hope for a happy healthy beautiful baby!

Anonymous said...

Actually I HAVE lost children and did have a heart defect diagnosed prior to birth but I still chose life and left it up to God. I did not play God and kill my child.Murder is murder and is never justified even if there is a lethal defect.
Also I am not a "hater", I just call out so-called "Christian" hypocrites that kill their babies and killing babies and drinking beer makes you a bad example for all LDS.

Anonymous said...

To Anonymous,

Your child probably left this world because they couldn't handle the cruel, evil person that was their mother. So that would also make you a MURDERER! If you weren't such a sick twisted woman your child would still be here on this earth. And your "heart defect that was detected prior to birth" was obviously misdiagnosed. It should have been a MAJOR BRAIN DEFECT!

I also am NOT a hater, I just call out so-called "Christian" hypocrites that KILL THEIR BABIES!

Hahahaha eat your own words Cruella!

Anonymous said...

To the anonymous who has so much to say... Who made you the authority to JUDGE anyone? You are one of the many people who give MORMONS a bad name!!! It is because of people like you that so many outsider HATE mormons! You are anything but "CHRISTIAN" I know that our heavenly father is looking at you in shame that you would even represent him the way that you do. If you believe that you are so right,and all that you say is true...then why do you comment "anonymous"? Stand up for your beliefs without being a COWARD! If you think there is nothing wrong with what you say,then why do you hide who you are? GOD WILL NOT BE MOCKED!!!! and you have NO right to JUDGE anyone. Our lord is a just lord,and I pray that you come across more situations to help HUMBLE your ASS, because obviously the trials you have been give thus far,have not worked!! God bless you and your UGLY soul:0)p.s...I hope your holier than holy self is repenting right now!

xoxo Carly said...

To the "anonymous" bitch who thinks God has given her a job to judge other people:

It must be nice to hide behind your "anonymous" identity. I find it funny that you would sit here and ridicule and harrass someone because they're brave enough to open their life, and their hurt up for other people to take comfort and solace from- yet I don't see you documenting or doing the same with your "hardships". Maybe you should actually start to practice what you preach instead of being some self-righteous hypocrite.

Also, you apparently have not followed this blog for that long because no where in any of her blog posts does it state they are "Mormon". But "your" God, he's everyone's God. No matter what religion or faith someone is. He loves everyone. I'm sure your church teaches you that. Maybe you should pay attention and try to be a little more like him.

Hilary said...

Kendra,
Just know that we all love and support you. There will always be people out there who feel they have the right to judge other's actions. Its exhausting to try and understand how someone can be so cruel and apathetic, so don't even try. Continue to surround yourself with loving friends and family, because they are all that really matter.
You are loved!

Wendy said...

Kendra, Ryan and their families have gone through hell and have done what they deamed right for their family. Read her blog it's full of love and life, not hate and judgement.

And where does drinking beer make you a bad person anyway? Get a life Anno hater! My husband drinks beer so is he a bad person? Come and tell me that to my face and you'll leave without one!

Love you Kendra, Ryan and MRW xoxox

Anonymous said...

Anon hater: I can not believe someone could be so ignorant. If you don't like this blog then don't read it. I have a hard time believing you are Mormon. I am a Mormon and the way you are acting is the complete opposite of everything Mormons believe in. Shame on you! Kendra you are an amazing person and please don't let stupid comments like this get you down. I read your blog because it is real and honest, good with the bad. You don't try to sugar coat and hide your true feelings and that is so appreciated! Your story is so tender and inspiring and I am excited for you and crossing my fingers you get pregnant and all goes well.

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