theme songs

i feel my life could be written in songs.

i love music.

i don't play it,

i don't write it,

i don't sing it-

well only when I'm alone, with kenzie or drunk.

but i love everything about it.

i feel you can express more emotion through music than you could anywhere else.

i feel there is always a theme song of my life.

every few months a new one would come up and replace the old theme.

life changed, songs changed, the world changed.

now, i don't have "a" theme song

i have a 10 disc library of my theme song.

while i was pregnant with makenzie my theme song was-

"it wont be like this for long" by darius rucker.

i would listen to that song over and over-thinking, i will never ever wish life would hurry up. i will never wish makenzie would finally sleep through the night, i would never wish she would start sitting up or crawling. i promised myself i would soak up every second of every minute with her. our midnight get togethers were fabulous. we would sit in her room, rock back and forth in the chair, look out the window at the sleeping world, the stars and we would listen to her theme songs. of course i came up with this amazing collection of baby tunes that she loved.

there were times i sure would have liked to get a bit more rest but to be honest,

i never ever wished different. those were the best times with her. as time went on our theme song collection grew and i couldn't ever eliminate an old song. i now have over 80 songs on our play list. most of our songs are right here on my blog play list but there are a few i don't have listed because they weren't available. i love hearing these play. i think about her every time.

some make me cry. others make me smile.

during those few weeks i went back to work, ryan would pick up makenzie from the baby sitters and bring her home. at that time she was not a happy camper. she hated her car seat. the only thing he could do to make her calm down was play "chicken fried"- by the zach brown band. she wouldn't fall asleep she would just stop crying and listen. we played that on her video at the funeral. it was the only upbeat song. the only one that made us really smile rather than cry. it still has the same effect on us. my nieces call it makenzies happy song. they say it makes them remember her. there are so many songs that make me think of makenzie. really everything reminds me of her- even lady gaga :) in a weird way....

well years ago i heard this song called daughter by Loudon Wainwright III. its a fun different song and every time i heard it, it made me happy. after i had my own daughter- this fit so perfectly with her. i have it as my first song on my play list below so take a listen.

Everything she sees

she says she wants.

Everything she wants

I see she gets.

That's my daughter in the water

everything she owns I bought her

Everything she owns.

That's my daughter in the water,

everything she knows I taught her.

Everything she knows.

Everything I say

she takes to heart.

Everything she takes

she takes apart.

That's my daughter in the water

every time she fell I caught her.

Every time she fell.

That's my daughter in the water,

I lost every time I fought her.

I lost every time.

Every time she blinks

she strikes somebody blind.

Everything she thinks

blows her tiny mind.

That's my daughter in the water,

who'd have ever thought her?

Who'd have ever thought?

That's my daughter in the water,

I lost every time I fought her

Yea, I lost every time.