Mothers Day

July 18 2009

my first moments as a mommy

lucky for me, it was to an incredible little girl named Makenzie Rye.

There is so much in the name MOM.

so many titles, duties, roles, responsibilities....

being a mom

has highs and lows

big moments and little moments

nap times and bed times

snacks and messes

bath routines

story time

worries and fears

laughs and smiles

dreams and wishes

choices and mistakes

hugs and kisses

tears and snotty noses

blow outs and clean up

laundry and laundry

milestones and moments

minutes and seconds

holding and snuggles

spit up and farts

cartoons and music

blocks and dolls

planning and delays

happiness and joy

proud and honored

warm and fuzzy

the littlest moments mean the most

Well Ms. Thang- Makenzie Rye.

 Another year. Another day. You there, me here. I still have those days and today was one of them. Not being with you has been weighting. I am wanting. Wanting you more than everything else in the world. More than any-thing I could imagine.

Oh how big you would be. How much you would have grown. The attitude and personality you would have developed. I can just see it now. My little spunky girl. 

Oh lovie. I am so thankful for you. I am so very honored I can call myself a Mother because of your beautiful life. You have blessed me in more ways than I think you planned. 

Happy Happy YOU Day!

Today is simply MY day because of YOU. I wouldn't be who I am without you. 

I wouldn't be a Mother without you as my daughter. 

You are my first and the only one who can call me Mom. 

You are my dream. You are my wish. and you came True.

Thank you for your eyes, your smile, your kisses, your heart, your fingers and toes, your hair and your nose. Thank you for every breath you took and I thank you for every second of your life you blessed me with. I love you to the moon. I love you with everything I am.

You are the reason I keep going, To be with you again. 

For that first Mothers Day I will get to spend with you. I cant wait. 

xoxoxo

Love Momi

My day didn't feel like a mothers day. I wish I would have taken more advantage and did something.

Breakfast = left over burrito that tasted like, blah...

Felt horrible and was just sad so went back to bed. Slept.

Ryan finally got me up at 4pm. Wasted the day away.

Went to dinner with Ryans mum. Dessert with my Mum. 

We tried to spend as much time with those amazing ladies as possible which left our visits going past 9pm. Still didn't get to see Kenzie. Needed to go there. I had flowers for her.

Ryan drove there in pouring rain. 

To make us feel better I just blamed the rain on the fact that she must be having a bubble bath and splashing way to much :)

It was pitch black and we were soaked. 

But I gave her kisses. 

I told her my I love You's. 

I dropped off her Sonic drink and I stood there sipping mine knowing she would enjoy hers as soon as I left. I'm thankful for her. For every second she gave me then and for every lesson she is teaching me now.

Cant end our Mother Day without telling our Mothers how much they are loved. We are blessed beyond measures to have them in our life. They are the reason we are here. They are the reason we had our Makenzie. They love us, support us and give so much to us. 

We love you to bits and pieces.

I have to send a very very very special Happy Mothers Day to all my mommy friends who are in the same missing boat as me. All those amazing Mothers who don't have their lovies with them. I am praying for you all. To have them hold you tonight. This road is long, to hard and so not fair. What amazing women there are. Those I know especially are just so incredible. I'm thankful for your guidance. You are my rock and you help me and inspire me more than any of you could ever imagine.

Thank You.

Happy Mothers Day.