Thursday, September 20, 2012

We are still here.

In 3 days my baby will be 2 weeks!! Where is the time going?
Well I guess it's going to constant feedings, changing diapers, spit ups, kisses, snuggles, singing, taking pictures, changing more diapers and more feedings.
Oh life has been busy. So good. So full. So beautiful. So busy.
Maybe I would get more done if I put this baby down for a second but I can't pull myself away. I can't have him more than inches away from me. Unless its at night when he- on his own- decided his crib, in his own room, all the way down the hall from mom was a much better place to sleep than in the bassinet right next to mom where she could keep one hand on him all night. Sigh. So I cling to my baby monitor all night. I have so much to update on this blog. So much to document. But I am soaking up every second with Tracker. He is simply perfection. Every inch of him. And I eat it all up. I am emotionally still out of it. I am so happy but completely overwhelmed with fear and anxiety. I cant be away from Tracker for more than a bathroom break and that's pushing it. Ryan's days at work are almost unbearable. The worry of something happening to either of my boys has been crippling. I am doing my best to get out of this stage. I am happy. I definitely am. I am so thankful and so over the moon inlove with both my boys. So this hiccup will pass. I'll get my butt in gear and get this blog up to date asap.
Until the next post enjoy a little bit of heaven with this little man.

19 comments :

Lindsay said...

I really think he looks like Makenzie... I love it. :) He's beautiful... :) Congratulations again.

Staci said...

Tracker is such a handsome little guy! Congrats again :)

Ashley said...

OH MY GOD he is so absolutely breathtakinly beautiful!!!!!!! Congratulations again Kendra. I can only imagine the range of emotions that you are going through!

Can't wait to hear more about Mr. Tracker!

The Call's said...

Oh my goodness Kendra! Tracker is such a handsome little guy! Congratulations! What a sweet miracle!

Our Family said...

He is adorable! What a little sweetheart :). And about your feelings...I think it's just motherhood! I'm not sure it will ever pass. I have 3 little boys now (almost 7, almost 3, and a 4 month old) and with my first I wasn't ever worried about anything. Now on #3 I am completely terrified. So weird! You'd think because it's my third I would be good to go! And in some ways, yes that is true. But in others I am a wreck!!! I worry all day, everyday that something will happen to one of them. I don't know that those feelings ever go away. I certainly wish they would because I feel like a nut job! I don't even let my baby nap away from me because I'm worried something will happen. I think I have just realized what a GIFT life is and how quickly life can change. I never realized that before. So know that you are joined by other nut case moms that worry non stop :) I promise there is an entire club of us out there!!! I had a friend tell me once "but worrying wont change the out come so why worry?". And although that's a good point...it hasn't changed anything for me!!! In the mean time of figuring all of this worrying out...just enjoy little Tracker. He is a doll baby! Soooo beautiful!!! I wish you guys the best :). You deserve it!!! Also...I sent you a friend request on Facebook :)

Katrina said...

He is absolutely precious! I chech back daily for updates and had started to worry a little bit when you hadn't posted in a while - I was just hoping everything was well with your cute little family. I am so glad to hear the break is because you are enjoying this perfect little boy you have been blessed with!! I am over the mooon happy for you guys! Congratulations!!!

Jaci Postell said...

Tracker is adorable! Enjoy every moment with him. I hope you are feeling well. Blessings!!

Debby@Just Breathe said...

He is precious. Savour each moment.

Shawna said...

Oh Kendra, he is so cute. I'm glad to hear that all is going well and that you are enjoying every second with him (like there was any doubt you would). I'll keep your anxiety/worry concerns in my prayers and hope they ease soon for you. Congratulations again!

Sierra Alford said...

So sweet! Congrats!

Auntie EM said...

Tracker is so sweet. Will you whisper in his ear that his Aunt Mary loves him? Enjoy your time with your little guy. They DO grow up way too fast. Love ya

Megan Fink said...

Congratulations on your new baby boy!!! He looks soft and squishy, oh and of course cute. Your family deserves the happiness. Best Wishes!

Alana said...

I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE this little man! He is so stinking cute. Can't wait to hold him again, thanks for letting me invade and hold him every day, just love being an Aunt (and a sister :))
Love you guys!

Trinity said...

What a handsome little man. He will sure keep you busy. He makes me want a little one, but we are done having children so I guess I will just ooh and aaw over other's little newborns. Congratulations!

Lisa F said...

I have been simply dying to see more. Thanks for the fix! He's adorable!!!

The Pachuilo Family said...

Kendra,
He is adorable! Again LOVE the name. Can't wait to see more pictures of this little guy! Thanks for sharing this little bundle of joy with all of us.

Rafahi Family said...

Oh he is so handsome! Glad to hear you are enjoying some down time with your newest man! :-)

VALIE said...

I am so excited for you. I can totally relate to how you feel. Love is a bit enslaving... If the price for happiness is anxiety, well, you'll have to make do with it (and stick your tongue at it when you are fed up). Oh how I wish I could grab Tracker out of the pics and hold him in my arms !!! Such a sweet baby. Enjoy, enjoy, enjoy, you and your dear husband deserve it :-)
Many thoughts in you direction all the way from France.

Melissa Baker Photography said...

I'm always checking Instagram hoping to see him. didn't see him in a few days and miss him :) crazy I know ! I also can see Makenzie in him,he's beautiful, Are you planning on hiring a professional photographer for some newborn pictures ? i know you take good pictures but something more pro would be a priceless treasure... <3

LinkWithin

Related Posts with Thumbnails