Thursday, September 6, 2012

a letter to my son.

Dear Tracker,

We are days away from meeting. Looking at each other for the very first time. Feeling each other. and starting our journey through life together. I am overwhelmed with gratitude for your life. When I think about what our first moments will be I am filled with the purest of joy. You are coming to us after the hardest time in our life. You are coming into our home already giving us this incredible light that we lost. The past 9 months have been surreal knowing we will get the chance to love again. To love that immensely. To love that beautifully. To love with all of our hearts. Your life is the greatest gift we could ever receive. To share your journey. To show you life the best way we know how. To guide you through some hard times and some amazing times.

Tracker I promise you love. Endless amounts of love everyday of your life.
I promise to never take your life for granted. I promise to thank God everyday for you. I promise to hold you. I promise to live our life as if everyday is our last.
I am not perfect and will make a million mistakes along the road but giving up or doing a 'good' job is not enough. Not for you.
I promise to teach you, comfort you, guide you, listen to you, understand you and love you with every ounce of me.
I promise to always be here.
I promise to say I am sorry when I am wrong.
I promise to embarrass you.
I promise to make you laugh.
I promise to accept you for whoever you become.
I promise to put my life on the line to save you.

Tracker, you hold my heart in your hands. You carry my happiness, my sadness, my fears, my dreams, my hopes, my wishes, my life. You have given me a reason.
Thank you for your life. Thank you for choosing your Dad and I as your parents. Your life will never be taken for granted. We see how blessed we are to have you.

Just like with your sister, we will give up everything in life to make sure you have everything. We will stand by you. We will never leave. We will carry you when you just cant do it anymore. We will be your constant.

We have been dreaming of you.
We have been praying for you.
You are about to change our world.
You will be ours.
You are our life.
You are the reason we are still here.
You are why we didn't give up.
We love you to the moon Tracker Kent Webster.

34 comments :

Ashley said...

What a sweet, beautifully written letter to your sweet Tracker Kent Webster.

I can't wait to read all about your little boy. I'll be praying for you and Ryan as you anxiously await his arrival!

BIG (((HUGS))) Mama!!!!

calcottc said...

I LOVE his name and can't wait to hear of his arrival

MichelleM said...

Beautiful letter, and I love your little boys name.

~Erin said...

The sweetest letter. I LOVE his name. How perfect for your perfect little boy. I can't wait to see pics of him and hear about his birth story. <3

Maine Baby Treats said...

Love the name!!!!! Did you slip? I thought we had to wait till his birth?

LOVE LOVE LOVE it!

Channan said...

Oh Kendra I love the name! Tracker is absolutely perfect. :) I can't wait until he is in your arms and you can feel that purpose again as a mother.

Cox Family said...

LOVE his name! What a sweet letter!

Dani & Jake said...

So beautiful. Your story makes me cry anytime I read this blog - for so many reasons. I am so happy that this little man is joining your family. Hope everything goes well!

Shanna said...

Awwww! TRACKER!! I have been waiting to find out this little boys name! I love it! Can't wait for what's next!

Kerry and Chris said...

Love his name! I love the post too. All your love in one little post. So glad you get to hold him soon. Hugs and prayers sent your way.

Lea and her Mustangs said...

Tracker Kent Webster - I love your name. I am so glad you will be here so your mommy and daddy can hold you. Blessings to you and your entire family.

Emma said...

Love! In all ways-the letter, the name, the love in your words. You have two very lucky little ones and I look forward to seeing and hearing about all the joy in your upcoming posts. Love Em

Dean and Rachel said...

What a beautiful letter! Can't wait to see pics of this sweetheart. I had my 2nd boy 3 weeks ago and the instant love is AMAZING! So happy for you.

blessed2012 said...

I LOVE his name!!

Janeal said...

What a beautiful tribute to your sweet son. And I love his name!! Can't wait to read about his birth story! Praying for a smooth, easy and quick delivery!

Jen Scoville said...

Love his name Kendra!! Been waiting for the reveal since you started calling him TKW :) I wish such beautiful things for you, Ryan and Tracker..Makenzie will be the light that surrounds your family and will be with all of you every step of the way! She will be Tracker's guardian angel, how cool is that?? Sending an amazing amount of love and light from my family to yours!!

Lynn Page said...

Omgoodness!! His name is beautiful!!

Brianne said...

The long-awaited name reveal is here! What a beautiful letter. I don't know you other than this blog, but your sweet Makenzie is truly one of the most beautiful babies that I have ever seen, and I am so looking forward to seeing your handsome Tracker, too.

Sara said...

what a handsome unique name!! Love it! I hope you do a post explaining how you chose his first and middle name and what significance they have, I just love it! He is going to be one lucky (and loved) little boy!!!

Kelli Krueger said...

Love love love the name! I also love this sweet letter to your precious little boy! I cannot wait to see the joy he brings to you and Ryan! My thoughts and prayers will be with you as you all begin the journey with this new little blessing! Hugs to you!

Colleen said...

Awwww, I like his name!!! It is something I have never heard before!!! I love those kind of names! Good luck in the days ahead. So happy for you two!

Justine said...

I love the name! Its so cute:)

Danielle said...

Just Beautiful! So excited for you!

Auntie EM said...

He will be a very lucky loved boy. I can't wait to see him. Love you, Ryan, Tracker and Kenzie :)

Ashlee Metcalfe said...

That was SO sweet... and by the way I LOVE his name!

Aimster said...

LOVE that name!!! It is so perfect. Congratulations on being a mom. You are my hero. Good Luck on Sunday!

The Fry Family said...

I'm in love with the name. Cant wait to see picture of this miracle.

Chantel said...

Beautifully written! Love the name. Will be praying for you and your family this weekend as this little guy arrives. Wish you all happiness.

Love said...

Congratulations Kendra, and Ryan! I am so happy for you. I've been following your journey for over 2 years now.

I am BLOWN away that his name is Tracker.

When you first announced his name and your apprehension behind such a unique name, the FIRST name that came to mind was TRUCKER. I cannot believe how CLOSE I was!!

Oh I cannot wait to meet him *via your blog*

I am crying tears of joy for you all! I know how important this was for you. I know how proud Kenzie is of the baby boy she helped hand pick just for you all to raise so she can play with him again someday!

I hope and pray this little boy helps heal your heart just a bit. I know he is not and never would be a replacement for his sister, but I am so happy that you are able to physically manifest all the love you've been holding inside again!

Trinity said...

SO sweet! Love his name.

Lea and her Mustangs said...

Dear Tracker, I love your name. Soon you will have your firstest birthday, the day you were born. Your mommy and Daddy love you soooo much.

Kennedy Klan said...

Beautiful post! And I LOVE his name! Cant wait to see little Tracker :) Best of luck with an easy delivery.

Sara said...

Love the name Kendra! Good luck. Can't wait to be reading about the joy of meeting him for the first time, know that many of your readers will be feeling a piece of that joy as well for you guys! Mckenzie will be watching over you guys I am sure.

Rafahi Family said...

Kendra, I love the name Tracker! So great! Thank you for sharing this personal and honest letter; while reading it I got goosebumps. I cannot wait to see pics and hear of Tracker's birth!

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