Sunday, July 31, 2011

again...

Even after the unthinkable happens...
Even after you have gone through the greatest loss possible...
Even after you hit rock bottom...
It can still be surprising, and unthinkable and unimaginable that it could happen again.
Maybe in a different way. At a different time. Its possible. Again.

I just pray to God. As hard as I can pray. That he has a plan. That there is another way. That I can do this.
That he is there. That he is listening. That he is real.
I don't want to think. I don't want to plan. I don't want to find another way.
I want it to be like everyone else. I want this.
Again Ryan gets it. He knows. He believes.
I wish I could be like him.

I just pray.

Maybe it will come true. Someday.

6 comments :

crystal said...

God is there for you and so are we. We are here behind you and praying for you. And you have two of the greatest people ever behind you, God and MaKenzie. Sending (((HUGS))) your way.

bibc said...

im praying and holding hope for you. i hope this post means good things for you and ryan. i love to log onto your page and see Makenzie's face. i think i may have spelled her name wrong in a past comment. im so sorry for that.
xoxo
lis

Tara Bennett said...

Sending love and hoping that all is well...

debbie said...

love you lots, Kendra~

Ashley said...

Hope everything is okay, for me...after losing my son I feel like nothing bad should ever happen again...I wish it were true.

Anonymous said...

Praying for you and your family.

I'm not sure exactly what your posts mean right now. But from what I am thinking you might mean... I will just pray and pray! Don't be afraid....

You can do it again tomorrow & for all of the tomorrows God has planned for you and your family! You can Kendra! You can!!

*hugs*

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