Weekend Fun!

What a week and weekend!
3 kids =
poop butts, smelly hands, crying, screams, books, games, food, food, snacks, runny nose, homework, sleeping, snacks, drinks, bottles, spit up, blankets, hugs, kisses, laughs, smiles...
and we love every minute. This week has been another perfect week. What is it about screaming children that makes you realize how incredible life is? I cant figure that out yet however I really don't care. This week has been great other than rushing Teagan to insta care because of a horrible cough and having NO sleep due to this sick baby along with of course the regular school and work schedules to work into the kids school schedules.
Ryan was so awesome with the boys anytime I needed extra help and for him to watch them he was always right there doing everything.
The kids were always doing things to make us laugh. Teagan has now learned to officially roll all the way over this week but she gets stuck and smashes her face into the ground and screams bloody murder! Devlin is just like me in the way he is so clumsy! We both fall over air. I don't think he sat on a chair that he didn't fall off of for one reason or another. Kailum is just Mr boss man. Thinks he knows everything and everyone. I really hope I can be as smart as him one day. If he doesn't know the answer he makes one up and will defend it till he dies (which he does for almost everything that comes out of his mouth :)
They are all so adorable and funny kids.
Some of the fun pics I got while they were here:

Ryan and I will soon have a house with just the 2 of us! We have not had that in almost a month! Between Ryan being gone hunting and the kids with us- I cant believe how long its been. I'm getting very excited for Halloween-I have started to decorate and stock up for our Halloween Party! We had the best one last year so we think its now a tradition!

I'm so excited that its the fall. I hope it lasts for a while longer- the snow needs to wait! I love the snow during the month of December but that's it. I am anxious for fall leaves, Halloween, Apple cider, a light sweater day and of course Thanksgiving! Plus in 1 month Ryan and I will be celebrating 2 years of marriage. WOW seriously cant believe it :)

just wanted to save a memory...

After my trauma day the other day and my super upsetting post I'm sure everyone is wondering if I'm doing okay- ha ha RIGHT! Since only my dear Mary Leigh reached out to me in love :(

Just an FYI I am doing wonderful now! Harley and I have made up and put the past behind us.

Guess What-- The best news-- Ryan is HOME! My sweet, wonderful, beautiful husband is home and he brought food with him. Which means he got a deer! Yes my hunter has kept his family fed for another year. For all the people who don't like hunting and think its wrong- I'm very sorry but its no more inhumane than eating any other meat!!! We eat the whole thing and we really don't eat any other meat and its so much healthier for you. I sent Ryan with his camera and the boy forgot batteries and didn't think to just buy new ones so NO PICTURES. He had a great time with his Dad, Brother Shaun and his buddies Pat and Jim. I'm sure the mini man vaca ended to quickly for him but I was so ready for him to get home-and just in time-

This week we have the KIDOS, all three, Kailum*Devlin*Teagan

Ryan has been the best this week. Never a complaint. Even after yesterday when I had work then school- he picked up the boys from school while my MOMI watched Teagan and I had school all night. I called between class to check on them and Ryan tells me he and Devlin are reading together while Kailum finished his homework. NOW for those who know Ryan- HELLO- This is amazing! He has always been an amazing person but for him to READ A BOOK to Devlin- Yes sob story Kendra started to cry. So when I got home around 8:30 PM he had a great dinner all ready, Devlin in the tub and a fairly clean house. He immediately took over Teagan while I finished bathing Dboy. Kailum and Devlin couldn't stop telling me this morning on our way to school how much fun they have with Ryan and how much they love him. I seriously am the luckiest girl in the world. To top it off. Ryan volunteered to do it all over again today so I can go to his cousins baby shower! Ryan came into my life knowing these boys were there. He knew they would always be around and he accepted them so wonderfully. Now- I never ask him to take care of them or to really do anything with them because I don't want him to feel any sort of obligation- but I never have to ask- he does it plus more on his own! AH I love him so much. It really takes a Man to step into this kind of role!

AH. The whole world is against me

Okay so my dog tried to kill me! Yes she and I have been together alone for far to long apparently and she tried to take me out this morning. She loured me out of the house by trying to make me think she was tangled around the light post. As I get out of the house and walk to her she runs from one side to the other so I am aerating (sp Im not a speller so dont laugh at my lack of letters smashed together) the lawn in my heels trying to catch her. I finally free her of the light post and as I take one step to the house just getting my heels back on the cement, Harley takes off like she is in a race and her chain wraps around my ankles and my legs fly out from under me. I am all the sudden twisted on my back lying on the ground. As I lay there with my life flashing before my eyes wondering if ill make it out alive I realize my neighbors are standing outside and no one is asking to help me. At this point I figure it must be some conspiracy to rid of me and I think to myself that I better get inside to protect myself. I fumble and hobble inside and sit down on the floor and examine my wounds. My ankle is already purple and puffy and my spine hurts. I cant call in to work because without me lets face it- American Express would not be able to function. With all the bravery I can muster I tearfully limp to my car and drive to work thinking how close I came to it being my time to go this morning. I frantically called Ryan in hopes of his sweet heavenly angelic voice to enlighten me but to my dismay he failed to answer. I didn't hear from him until 4:20 PM! Yes I almost died of a heart attack as well. Today is just not my day and I think I need to rush home before any further damage is done to me. Again with the world against me I cant go home- I have to tough out 4 hours of school tonight- one class being a MATH test. WOW its really not my day and I have realize I must have done something to piss off the Gods of Carma because they are all against me today!

i am- going to be selfish and write all about ME

i am...
i am- so missing ryan
i think- way to much
i know- i need to clean my house
i want- ryan
i dislike- homework-to much right now
i miss- should i say it again- RYAN and my brothers
i fear- i wont be the person i dream of becoming one day
i feel- tired (cant sleep)
i hear- a lot of noise around me and wish i had my ipod to listen to my tunes :)
i smell- my yummy salad that i want to eat right now
i crave- frozen peas and popsicles. dont ask me where this came from it just started a couple weeks ago. ryan cant stop laughing because thats all i ever want to eat
i cry- this morning. really missing my hubby
i usually- hate thursdays. they always feel like fridays but then i soon realize they are sooo not and i have one more day to go
i search- for what i believe in?!
i wonder- what is in store for my family this next year
i regret- not starting school right out of high school- i could be almost finished- agh
i love- my life: when my hubby is home
i care- about every person i see in the world- and all those i dont see- i want peace :) yes thats the hippy in me- where is a tree- i need to hug one
i always- create a excel spreadsheet when i worry about something. i try to find a solution to the problem and/or make sure i prepare myself for anything-nerdy-
i worry- my family is not happy, hurt or in need of something
i am not- in the body i wish i was in (physically)
i remember- my "perfect" weekend.
i believe- in God
i dance- ...when i really shouldnt and everyone is watching...
i sing- all morning i have been singing selena- hehe-
i dont always- realize how good i have it
i argue- about everything. ill even argue with myself when i think i am wrong
i write- during most every emotion i have. today i prob should have skipped it because i feel a little blue
i win- wii
i lose- my shoes and clothes- how can i really just lose them? i havent figured it out yet
i wish- it was closer to christmas
i listen- selectively
i dont understand- the world and politics
i can usually be found- at work or school, i dont have a life
i am scared- of night time. theres scary monsters out there. what if a ghost gets in my house
i need- to lose a bit of weight
i forget- to take pictures of the best moments in life
i am happy- when ryan comes home

See You Later...

So I know I'm being a bit of a drama queen but those who know me really well know I have really really bad separation anxiety. I have been this way my whole life and believe me its not pretty! My adorable amazing husband is leaving today for the best week (in his life) of the year. Its hunting season and during this time I usually lose him on weekends, a few days here or there, hours to go to the range and of course our TV is set on the hunting channel. I knew this would happen when we got married however I didn't realize how annoying it can get until after our first real year of actually living together married. Last year was hard however I tried to be supportive but still ended up being a nagging wife who followed her husband down to the cabin during this much anticipated week. This year- I have become much more understanding. I really don't complain until I see the bank account drop due to the much needed new items for the hunting year. The hunt started back in August so I have survived almost 2 full months of this. Today however is the start of something different. This week long adventure will be had without the wives this year. Not only because the boys deserve a week with just the "men" but because of ridiculous gas prices and lack of time there is not really a way for me to make the 4 hour drive down south to the cabin. Today is the first day of my adventure. Ryan leaves at 1:00 PM. I have said my "see you laters..." along with many tears (only from me) This is the longest time I will have spent apart from my husband. One week- Oh that should not be a problem right? Well for me its not just one week of not having him here but its one week of constant fear he is not "okay"Is he cold? Is he hungry? Is he lost? A million stupid thoughts run through my mind. Yes Ryan is an adult and has been hunting the same mountain with the same routes and with the same people for his whole life- 24 years! I need to just breath. I know he will be fine and will have the time of his life. I mean no wife, no one telling you to shower, no one telling you to eat something healthy, no one telling you to be nice and stop being such a "boy". Yes this is definitely my husbands week! He deserves it because all year long he has to live with me :) I just love my husband and don't trust anyone to make sure he is "okay" like I trust myself (I think I'm going to have some serious problems when I have children)

So sweetie- Until next Wednesday See you later and Have a blast!

Loving All the pictures

It only takes a few minutes because that's all I have. Teagan is such a happy happy girl but get bored quickly. It was such a fun weekend with Teagan. I don't have near as many pictures of Teagan as I did with Devlin so I really need to catch up. This was almost to easy to take some cute pictures of her. Smiles are what she does naturally. Teagan is such a special little girl and has really helped me see things in a different light. Simply because I get to be with her so much I have such a special bond with her just like I do with Devlin. I look at her pictures and think about her future- It scares me to think about what could happen but I guess that's when I need to stop. To many "could" and "mights" could happen everyday in this world and sometimes they take over to the point I lose whats happening right now. Right now- she is perfect. Happy and loved more than she could ever imagine. In the future- Other than how much people love her- who knows what could change. None of that is important though. She is perfect!

Have I said before that I love Pictures?!

I love taking pictures esp of kids and esp. of my nieces and nephews! When I take pictures of them I am able to capture the beauty and perfection they all have. Plus its fun to just get pictures of those little kids smiling and being so dang cute.

I took just a few of little Addie the other day. She is getting so big and chunky. I just love being with that little girl. She definitely has brought a different love to our family. I think anytime you join into a family there might be even a minute where you have to learn to fit in. I have been so lucky. My in laws are not really "in laws" They are my family and when I talk about my family I mean everyone of them and that means Ryan's side. I see so much unconditional love when I am with them. I was accepted from day one in spite of who "I was" They never cared. I cant believe I am able to be married to my incredible husband but also to my incredible new family. When Addison came along I think it almost joined us together even more. This perfect little girl brought in a million more laughs, smiles and memories.

All in Utah

So I talked a few post ago about my brother Ben and his family coming to Utah. They made the trip because we didn't know how much longer our Grandma Murtle would be with us and it was going to be a good bye trip! (FYI: She is doing fine and getting a little better everyday:)
This trip was amazing and we had so much fun with him and all his girls. I cant wait to see them all again. We did so much while they were here but the real reason it was such a perfect week was just because we all got to be together. I love all my nieces so much and they were consistently making me smile and laugh. Mina and Yuna slept over on one of the last nights they were here. I had so much fun watching movies and eating nothing but junk food till the wee hours. I went to be before them and when Ryan and I woke in the morning- they were asleep in our hall next to our bedroom door. When I woke them up to move them they were so surprise to be on the ground. They said "We didn't mean to fall asleep- we were going to stay up all night"
Bitna is almost 5 and full of so much energy. She has the sweetest voice and most adorable laugh. She is one of the only kids I have seen make Ryan melt like she did. He just fell in love with her. Being able to be with my family everyday for a little over a week was awesome. I cant believe how lucky I am to be in this family.
If it was not for web cam I don't know what I would do. I love being able to see these girls smile at me all the time. It was a very sad goodbye when they finally had to leave. Many tears were going all around.
Ryan and My vacation budget is already growing very quickly so we can plan our next trip next year to see them.

Kendra is 21

Since I have been such a Blog slacker I need to catch up on the past month!

FIRST- MY BIRTHDAY!!

It was a great birthday since I was able to simply be with my hubby. We didn't do much on my bday but Ryan was so sweet and took me out to dinner then bought me this birthday cake and flowers. We went out the next weekend with my family Ben, Myunglim, Kristianne and Amy... Along with other friends!

Harley grabbed a little sample of the cake- SILLY DOG!

8 IS GREAT

8 is Great

*I saw this on another blog and thought it would be fun!

8 Things I am Passionate About:

1. Ryan (He is so tough:)

2. My Career- Job

3. School

4. My Family- All Million and one of them!

5. Starting a family with Ryan

6. Changing the life's of others

7. Finding my purpose in this world

8. L-O-V-E

8 Words or Phrases I say Often:

1. "HELLLLO" (This one is directed to my hubby and my boss when they don't answer me or are lost in space)

2. "ERGH"

3."I love you"

4. "What the.."

5. "BYAN"

6. "Harley NO"

7. "Come on Kendra, Keep going"

8. "Miss you"

8 Things I want to do before I die:

1. Swim with Dolphins

2. Watch my family grow old

3. Retire

4. Become a school teacher

5. Go Rafting

6. Write a book

7. Become a photographer

8. Buy my own motorcycle- learn to ride one ;)

8 Things I have learned from my past:

1. Don't try to grow up to fast

2. Hold onto your closest friends

3. Don't settle

4. Follow your dreams- No matter how crazy they are

5. Just because your a Sr. in High school doesn't mean your grown up and know anything!

6. Study Hard

7. Value the small things in your life

8. Give, give and know you have never given enough

8 Places I would love to go or see:

1. Australia

2. Italy

3. Finland

4. China

5. Scotland

6. Ireland (Note Pics of Ireland. Beautiful)

7. The Rain Forest

8. A real life, in the wild Elephant and Giraffe

8 Things I currently need or want:

1. To finish School

2. New shoes

3. A maid

4. Clean my desk at work- catch up on everything I need to do instead of blog :)

5. Get family pictures taken

6. Plan a Halloween party!!!

7. Study for the Psych. test I have in 4 hours

8. Kiss my Husband!

I miss "Aunt Kendra"

I want to be home right now. With my family. All of my family. Seeing everyone run, laugh, smile. Today is a day I realize once again how much love I have for my family.
Ben, MyungLim, Mina, Yuna, Bitna and Donna all took off back to Korea. Standing at the airport watching them walk away almost drove me insane. I have been having a really hard couple of days- Thinking about this moment. Know they are going back to their home. Not knowing when I can see them again. When I went to help pick them up this morning little Bitna was crying. This little green eyed girl didn't want to leave and watching her with those tears running down her face broke my heart to pieces. I love to hear "Aunt Kendra" I love to hug those girls who are going up so fast and I hate the fact I cant watch it. My brother has always been very special to me. When we went to visit him in Korea I developed this incredibly strong bond. This need for him and for his whole family. One of the best things that came out of our trip to Korea was realizing I needed to develop this with the rest of my family. It can be very difficult sometimes. Our views, opinions and our past esp. has really gotten in the way of this close family like I dream. I understand it will not be a close family but I want to be as close as possible to each one of my siblings. I have really been able to get close to Kristianne lately. Of course always have looked up to her. The "cool" one for my whole life. What an amazing person she is. I see her take care of Grandma Murtle and I am blown away. True unconditional love! I can go on and on about her and all my other siblings but that's for another post. I am more writing for my own realization once again how important my family is to me. Everyone of them. I am so grateful to have the life I was given.
I promised my Bitna I would see her during the year she is 5- She turns 5 in November so I have 1 year and 2 months to get back to Korea. I still cant think about waking up tomorrow and not being able to see these girls. I just cant think about it right now-

Loving Every Minute

HaPpY SepTemBeR!
Life is
L- Love- Full of it that is :)
I- Increasingly more busy day by day
F- Far more unpredictable than I could have ever imagined
E- Entertaining
Where do I start? Taking this vaca blog has been a little sad for me. I feel a bit more organized when I follow my daily and weekly plans and without the blog I have forgotten my days, messed up the routine and just missed all my blogging buddies!
I am now officially LEGAL! My 21st bday was awesome. I really lived like a young 21 year old girl (for a few days)
School has started! I'm going full force and taking 4 classes. I'm so glad I have one of my very bestest friends in 3 of my classes! WHOo HOo.. I LOVE YA MAL
Among the list in my life
- Painted my WHOLE HOUSE
- Moved pretty much every room around to make better space, some rooms had a total remodel and moved to the basement or upstairs or to the garbage!
- My EXTRA load at work is really wonderful but also verrry draining
- Devlin, Ellie and Aidan all started Kindergarten
- Both my mother and mother in law had a birthday
Happy Birthday Momi! Happy Birthday Mom-Becky
- A few other minor issues with family
AND THEN!
My adorable wonderful 100 year old Grandma Murtle had a 2 Strokes!
She is seriously never going to let go- She is still around and going strong. Its a daily thing but this sweet lady refuses for whatever reason to let go.
Hospice has been coming and keeps telling us 5-10 more days for her to live. That was a few weeks ago. When they first told us this- The Army sent my brother Ben and his family home!!!!
Although it was under tough circumstances- I cant tell you how happy I have been being able to be with my brother and his family every day again. I took a week off school and work! We have been SO busy trying to fit in not only play time but quality time with the family and of course mainly Grandma! I think she has been really over whelmed with a million and 1 kids running around all the time but I know she loves it.
I have so many pictures I need to get on here- I took the girls to paint pottery, a few shopping trips to get webkinz, littlest pet shop and books. We went boating on Tuesday- WHICH was very cold but extremely fun esp since they have never experienced anything like that before. We went on hikes, swimming pool party's. It has been so much fun to be able to be with them.
Since yesterday I have not been able to turn off the water works. I cant even think about any of them without breaking down. I keep thinking about Friday morning when they leave and remembering the feeling when we got on the plane in Korea. I hate not being able to see them and hold them. My family is so important to me. My brother has become this person I have needed so much in my life. He is so amazing and the best Dad I have ever met. I really admire how incredible he and his adorable wife have raised their girls. The most respecting, well behaved children I have ever met! We will have a big goodbye party tonight before they leave in the morning.
I'm already checking air fair to go back next year!

Perfect Weekend

So as the letters keep coming in the memories and images keep popping up out of no where. I had the beautiful Teagan Mae and Devlin Don this last weekend. It was a weekend that was not the same as many other weekends. It was a weekend my mind was on everything but the little things. A spill happened here, I stepped on a really sharp toy there and again for the 10Th time in the last few hours Teagan spit up all over me. Between sippy cups, bottles, changes of clothes, laying on the ground that needs to be vacuumed, a second trip to the store in the same day because I forgot formula my life seemed almost perfect. I don't have children, (other than my husband and dog) yet when I have these 2 perfect little babies I become someone other than the soon to be 21 year old college girl.

Watching Devlin smile, run around, help me water the garden and tell me how much he loves his new backpack we got for school.

Watching Teagan kick, roll, flip that little body in every direction, lighting up the house with her smiles and giggles, holding her own bottle at 3 months.

~~~~ I started to cry. The world stopped this weekend. My Sunday morning was filled with more happiness being with these kids.

*****I wish Ryan was there- its the opening weekend of the hunt and

*****of course he couldn't miss that.

I started to think about the day before when I sat at Ryan's uncles funeral. Watching as the room wept. Life is so short. Days are so short. My life is running by me so fast that I'm starting to wonder if ill catch up. I keep falling behind. I see the beauty in these children and it makes those memories of being 5 come back. I was not a child I was an adult doing and seeing things I shouldn't even know about yet. I don't understand why the thoughts keep coming back so much now at this time in my life. My therapy away from simply being with Ryan is watching the life of my nieces and nephews. The smiles and joy I see from them almost makes everything that happened to that little girl go away, Like it doesn't matter because as long as nothing happens to these kids.

The past is really just filled with confusion. Not anger or hate just the lack of understanding what happened and why. Ill never get answers and especially not a good enough answer for causing so much pain and chaos. I really don't care though- The letters still keep coming and sometimes ill read them and sometimes I wont.

I didn't read the last one. **Instead I had this perfect weekend with the joy I forget exists when I read those letters.

My life is full of Love for Ryan beyond measures. This man who put all the dreams of a "perfect" wife aside to be with me and love me unconditionally! This crazy, full of extra baggage girl. Along the road of my life I have been blessed enough with some of the best people. I hate the fact I don't have contact with all of them anymore. Its sad that when someone touched your life so much, little things get in the way of holding close to them for forever. Of course I don't place blame- Its really probably my fault but to those who have ever been in my life for the positive I thank you. You have all given me my perfect weekend. Seeing the love, joy and beauty in this world is something I hope I can hold on to everyday. Its not all bad and I wish there was a little less of those bad times- however someone like me needs those bad times otherwise I wouldn't have had that perfect weekend to fully realize all the good.

Mi Teagan Mae

our new house in our old house

Since the market is so horrible right now we have decided not to move! We had an offer but it was so much under what we are asking I couldn't help but laugh. The other townhouses around us are having the same problem. When we thought we would move it was to mainly save on gas and be closer to work and school. Our plan was to get a cute house to get ourselves settled for only about 3-4 years until I graduate and then we would see where our careers and lives took us from there. Just like everything else in the world plans change. We are staying in our adorable townhouse in our amazing neighborhood. I am actually very excited because we have such a fun area that is so peaceful. Its right on the mountain with great views! It may be a little far for us but its not that bad. We now know every side street in Davis county so we can navigate around town when there is traffic. People are starting to warm up to us and our dog and we have actually made some friends! Since we are staying we decided to make our place just how we want it because it can def. use some an update. We saved some money to put improvements on our new house but since we are not moving its the perfect opportunity to give our place a face lift.
First- WINDOWS! We got them installed about a month ago and I love them. They are the highest quality and actually are tinted so its great when the sun is coming up in our bedroom and we don't get cooked out.
Second- PAINT! We have officially lost the horrible paint job by the last residents- They really didn't know how to match colors.











Third- NEW FURNITURE! Couch, Entertainment center, Kitchen table and the latest as of last night- NEW WASHER AND DRYER!
Fourth- Kitchen! We are in the process of a total revamp! Its going to look great with new counter tops.
Fifth- CARPET! We already tiled the kitchen and baths so now its time for new carpet or hardwood floors. We have not decided yet. We went to look at prices yesterday and we narrowed down the different styles and colors we like.
Sixth- MANS ROOM! My adorable hubby has some interesting yet not fashionable animals that his dad, grandpa and he killed. For example coyote, mountain lion, bobcat and of course deer. He is very proud of them and I really wanted him to have them somewhere in the house. As of right now we have an extra family room in the basement and everything is down there but there isn't much else other than a poker table, love sac, couch mini fridge and the animals! So Ryan is making a Bar with a built in fridge (He really can make everything) We are getting a TV and surround sound and its going to be his "MAN ROOM"
We have some other little things here and there that we are doing like new lights in every room, knobs, faucets, toilets, etc. We are very excited to get this going. We are half way through right now and are taking things slow since it is a big project and we are being smart about where the moneys being spent :) I cant wait till its all done- We have at least 3-4 more years here and it leaves us with plenty of growing space (Just in case)

Life with and without kids!

I love kids. I really cant wait until we start our family but having kids stay with you for a while really puts things in perspective as to how much you need to grow and be prepared for when you have children of your own. They don't ever go home :)

I cant complain, Devlin and Teagan are great kids but they are kids and much time, money and energy is put into them every minute they are with us. We are always trying to exercise their minds and imagination. We have so many activities and adventures we try to do with them so they can experience the world! Growing up with 9 other siblings. It was impossible for my parents to give us the same opportunity. I remember my sisters and brothers really reaching out to Jonathan and I. We were so lucky to have them in our life. Visits to the Lake, food world, penny wise, sleepovers, lunch dates, Halloween, spilling water, hedgehogs, dogs, hook and ladder, snakes and the red rocks. I couldn't have survived without them. No matter how much we love our nieces and nephews when they go home just for a short while we sigh a little with relief- then about 10 min later we start missing them like crazy again :)

Well after this weekend Ryan and I decided we needed to go out. Its not often we go out just the 2 of us for a "Date" I miss our dress up dates where we would eat at nice places, watch movies, walk around and not care what time it is. Responsibility seems to grow with age! Ah so not fair. I think we should all stay children for forever. Its great we surround ourselves with family and friends to do keep us grounded and help us realize we really are young and its time to have all the fun we can! Trips, Dates, Party's and Newlyweds is where we are. How lucky am I!

Heber Days

It was Heber days and we had Teagan and Devlin so we headed up to have some fair fun! I have said before that my sweet hubby really wants to move to a small town. I am not a small town person. I would love to live were I am in Fruit Heights and have land but I need to be close to not only family but shopping centers and entertainment. I don't have a very big imagination. Heber sure is growing but its still not a very big city. My family used to live here and we joke about how some of the people act when we go back. NOT everyone is like this but a few people we ran into were what some would categorize as small town "folk" Talking loudly about a person standing right next to them! There is no sense of time so everyone drives 15 MPH, walks like they are lost and serves you business like you have all the time in the world to wait. Maybe I need to put the breaks on and live in a small town and learn to slow things down. I live everyday with a lead foot. Faster, Now and not enough time is how my days are spent :)
We had fun at the fair though. Other than bad food and over priced rides it turned out great. Devlin and Olivia got their faces painted- Devlin was a rainbow tiger and Olivia was a rainbow zebra. They sure look really cute!

Lucy Lu

I am very late in posting this but my sister Alana had her 4th little baby last week! Lucy Jean Harkness! This girl was born with a head of bleach blonde hair like you haven't seen and already chubby legs that have rolls. She is so adorable and looks exactly like her older sisters and brother. We went over to visit them again last night and I am so in love with all those kids.

REAL

We went to the REAL game earlier this week with my sister Kristianne and Olivia. It was a great game and they won!

Ms Livis with the popcorn hat!

Kristianne and Olivia

a much needed get-a-way

Sometimes when you have a long week you just need to get away! Ryan and I decided to pack up and head down to the cabin to just get away from the heat, laundry and city. It rained quite a bit there but it was still a blast being down there just the 2 of us-well 3 including Harley. We rode the 4wheelers for hours and hours. It was Harley's first time riding since last year and he loved it. She sat in front of me and held on the best she can. I tried to be calm but come on- I'm on a 4wheeler I have to go over some huge rocks and drive really fast! Ryan did a little 4wheeling with his truck. Its a all black truck with black rims but as you can tell it was now a lovely shade of brown! This pictures doesn't do justice as to how dirty this thing really was. There are deer all over the place down there and usually the same ones keep coming to our cabin for a drink.




Ryan cant wait for hunting season to start. Just 3 more weeks and he will be down there every weekend through September. Then it will start to snow to much down there so he will be hunting the Wasatch front every weekend until Dec. I wont be able to go back down to the cabin this year since my schedule is already packed! Full time work, Full time School, Devlin and Teagan, Family Reunions and plenty more to keep me busy :) At least when Ryan goes down there I know that means lots of play dates with my sisters and friends. My family is already starting to plan my big 21 birthday party! 28 days!









(Harley got into the fireplace and somehow got 2 little black dots by her eyes. It looked pretty funny)

Its different world when your a kid!

I love the sound of children playing. Running, jumping, carefree kind of life. I remember having those days every now and again. Usually with my sister Donette. I don't think she ever really grew up. We would eat spaghetti o's, watch Ren and Stimpy, hike, camp at the "red rocks" and of course keeping the camera close by. I dreamed of the days I would get to see my sister. Those were the special weekends when I would live in a different world. I could be a kid. I had great brothers and sisters who would let me be young. I didn't have to think like a grown up and make sure I was always saying the right things. I learned very young when I could say certain things and when I should say what he wanted to hear. A big reason I feel like I'm 2 different people is because I am not like I was then. For those of you close to me know- can you imagine telling me to feel a certain way or not say something. UMM- I don't think so! Most of the people in our neighborhood don't care to much for us. We don't go to church and we have a loud dog! The kids however love to come to our house. We get out the pool and slip-n-slide and they play for hours. We have come to know the kids pretty well so we know who they belong to and where they live so we try our best to go out of our way to get to know their families to. (Mainly because their kids hang around our place so much) Every now and again I get a few great shots of the kids playing. I love it and could sit and watch them for hours.