Why I love Soldiers

Do you know what its like to hug or kiss the one you love and not know if you will ever see them again. Know they are going into an extremely dangerous place with people who WANT to kill them? I couldn't imagine that fear- that pain.
I only could see my brother and his family and know what its like to have your brother leave. I love my brother to death but its not my spouse. The father of my children.
Army Wife's= AMAZING!
I used to work at a bed and breakfast called Armstrong Mansion. I was working one night then again in the morning. These 2 couples check in together (separate rooms :) I talked to them a little in the evening they checked in and one of the couples had a little girl who was not with them that night. As we continued to talk they told me both the husbands were being deployed the next morning to Iraq. Ah my heart sank. One couple who didn't have a child just got married because they both wanted the knowledge they were married before he left. The other couple had just had a baby a few month earlier. They both checked in and had a good night. The next morning I was getting breakfast ready to be done by 6:00 AM like usual and a few minutes after 6 both girls along with the ones baby came in just sobbing. I didn't know they had to be there at 5:00 AM. They had just returned from dropping them off. 1 year they would be gone! The grief and love they both had just over powered me and I just broke down. I couldn't imagine how hard that is for not only those wife's but those husbands leaving worrying everyday if their family was save back home.
I have seen some picture of what some soldiers have seen. Right in front of where they stayed. I have an extreme emotional tie when I see any one in uniform. I get very protective over soldiers and will get a little crazy when I hear anyone talk down on them.
They are my Hero's.
This is why I love soldiers...

ELECTION

I keep putting this off because I HATEEEE political FIGHTS. Debates are one thing but when people are so pig headed they cant look outside of either BLUE or RED or whatever it makes me sick. We are at a time in this world where we need to stick together more than ever! I will not declare my stand on politics because I feel its irrelevant. President Obama is now our president. Whether you like it or not you should have an obligation to respect him. You may or may not agree with his beliefs but what we really need right now is help getting out of the mess our country is in. Over the last year or so with all the politics on TV and the campaigns my biggest thought above all was my brother who is on a daily basis fighting for this country. Not only my brother but I have some very close friends who are also in the military as well as other family. I have had a hard time sitting on the fence throughout the campaign and now that we have our president- I will stand behind him and pray he helps this country. We have so much we should all be grateful for already but there are some other things we need a great leader for. Its scary for all of us to elect a new president. This could mean huge amounts of change and could effect anyone of us personally. I just hope its for the good for everyone! I will stand behind our president because he is our leader right now. When the results came in and McCain and Obama gave their speeches I was really inspired by both parties. Its about unity now. Like Obama said its not about red states or blue states its about the United States!!!!

(Okay sorry if I didn't say that in his exact words)

Here we come Vegas

I am so excited that its Thursday you don't even understand. Usually Thursdays are my worst day because I always think its Friday but soon realize I have one more day to go.. BUT today I am just too excited because Ryan and I are going to VEGAS! Whoohooo.... I was thinking this will be our first trip alone. WHAT... So we have been to California, Vegas, Korea however its always been with friends, family or to visit family. This time we are going ALONE. This is going to be a very skimpy trip simply because $$ is tight right now- WHO CARES. We have plans to just wonder around, see the funny Vegas peeps and enjoy a drink or to. This will also give me a change to gamble legally! I will only be on the penny machine and with maybe 10 Penny's but hey- what a treat for me. Maybe ill win millions then go buy the L.A.M.B shoes I have been dreaming of since last year when I spotted them! We go to Vegas every year this time to attend the PBR finals! For those who don't know

PBR= Professional Bull Rider Click Here!

Ryan is completely obsessed with COWBOY anything. Part of his family is from down south- Ryan thinks he is a cowboy :) Or wishes he was. He has always dreamed of going to the PBR and the first year we were dating- I got him PBR tickets for his birthday! We have been hooked ever since. Its only a 3 year tradition right now but it will continue for FOREVER!! We only go for the weekend and each year its been awesome. The entertainment at the PBR is so fun, the people you see there are great and then your in VEGAS. What else could you want? Our 2 year anniversary is 1 week from Sunday. This will be our little getaway for our anniversary.

Its Monday- Yes I am Happy

The first Monday in November has arrived!
Hello-
Fall/Winter
Anniversary
Birthdays
PBR
Thanksgiving
Fall Fashion
Sweaters
Christmas list
Christmas Shopping
Tropic
PTO!!!!
Idaho
So November is going to be a busy yet amazing month! (cross my fingers) After a Sunday that almost made me jump off a bridge- I am so ready to count by blessings and see all that I have to look forward to this month!
I have to say really quick how awesome my Saturday afternoon was- HELLO! I was reunited with my besty Heidi! We were the bestest of friends for years and years in High School... We had some interesting, sad, hard, amazing, fun times together. After drifting away for a bit of time we started gabbing again like old times about a year ago. WOW.. Its been amazing but she has lived across the country sooo until Saturday we were not able to hang out. We went to Lunch at CPK and then window shopped a bit. It felt like no time had passed. It was awesome! I have missed her so much so It was so much fun to see how much our lives have changed and how much we have grown. She is married to her high school sweetheart and they are doing awesome! WOOHOO....
So my Sunday- Bridge jumping attempt- it was a rainy gloomy day to start out and I usually don't mind but I had to trek out of the house to stock up on grocery's. After an hour and a half of going crazy with finding everything we needed I headed home. Cleaned the kitchen really good- organized (one of my favorite things) then started to open the mail that I have neglected to open all week. In the mist of opening mail I started paying bills and going over our budget for the month of Oct and now the month of Nov. We have known there are 2 big things we are paying for during these 2 months. The first- we live in a town house and although we own it we still pay an HOA for maintenance and such. We learned they are redoing all the roofs and each unit (house/homeowner) needs to pay $1700!!! ahh... BIG HIT... okay okay that's what those savings accounts are for- Then after months of battling with the people who installed our new windows we finally got the bill for our windows- due in full $1800!!! We were somewhat planning for both so we saved a little extra each month so get ready for the big hit. Its a little rough timing having both so close together and on top of that so close to Christmas- oh well- its a sweet little Christmas this year and we are happy and grateful for all we have now :)
As I continue to open the mail- YES my medical bill for going to the ER a little while back came!
Cold, uncomfortable hospital room + a few blood tests + still going home in pain = $850.00
Ahh... So after I realize we are really really running low on our savings yet still thankful its there- Ryan yells to me from the basement... As I walk down stairs I see him throwing our food from the freezer into our laundry basket. What the heck happened?
Our freezer went out!!!! Yes all our food- SO MUCH FROZEN FOOD! Gone.... + our basement then stunk because we didn't notice our food rotting :(
Its Monday- I'm at work... Wondering how all the many things that are coming up will get paid for... WOW--- I am at work-- work-- I am working. How lucky am I to have a great job to come to everyday and know I will get a paycheck within the next 2 weeks. How great it is to know I have a wonderful, healthy, working husband who would do anything to support me. I have family coming from every angle that if something happened would scoop us up in a second! I complain about school but how lucky am I to have the opportunity to not only learn but to go to college. The timing is a bit of a bummer right now for so many things to come up $$ wise but hey- life is awesome. Our Vegas trip next week has already been paid for months ago... We started stashing some cash away for Christmas so at least we can get our family something + I always have to do the Christmas wish tree... ( where you pick a child off a tree and they list what they need/want for Christmas- its amazing to do that every year)
Its great to know I will always give to others because I know I have it pretty great compaired to many. Thanks to all my blogger buds because you help me smile everyday! What a wonderful world we live in and what a wonderful life I have.

Sometimes when I google away or just working online at all and come across pictures I love to save the ones that stand out to me. As I reviewed some that I have saved these are some that made me Thankful for life. They inspire me to become a better person and reach out to others. Ah The little asian girl that is so excited reminds me of my niece Bitna- its my fav. pic by far!!!

Rewind a bit part 2

I love Halloween- Last year we had a fun little party with a few friends. This year we had a bit of a bigger party with friends and family. It grew a little more even though our living conditions didnt so we were a little squashed into our place but it sure was a blast. I kept losing my camera (I do that alot) mainly because there were to many peeps there but everytime I found it- I kept snaping shots. I wish I would have got everyone and their costume but heres a good amount.



My sisters










Duke and Kathy









Ryan and Kendra










Kely and Khang









Ryans hillarious cousin Noah












Ryan










Mallie and Justin












Robin and Andrea








Mal and I. I dont know where we were looking or why we were so friendly- Hmm we just really love each other.









Last but NOT least. My baby Harley. She didnt want to wear her cowgirl hat because it kept falling under her neck but she was the most adorable cowgirl around!

Rewind a bit!!!

I wanted to post a few pictures from the past few weekends... My camera was MIA for a while but now that it safe and sound I got my pics loaded up and ready to show and tell- This first set is my most exciting camping/hunting trip to Flaming Gorge... Again can I just say it was beautiful. Although I keep begging my husband to move out of Utah just so we can experience different cultures and I really want to go to school in either another state or even another country. Unfortunately my Ryan LoVES Utah. It has everything that he loves and more. He is all out doors man and couldn't imagine living any place that he cant go outside and see his mountains. He sure loves to travel with me and I think a few more trips he might be more keen to the idea of just experiencing a different life for a bit. I love Utah though and will continue to bask in its beauty while here.

While searching the mountain at 5 in the morning is the best time in Ryans life,

Harley and I beg to differ. Walking around the freezing cold didn't entertain either mind of Harley and I. We sat in the truck and watched the sun come up. This is how excited Harley was! I looked pretty much the same but a little worse- I froze all night and didn't bother to put makeup on while camping so I was a mess!

Happy Halloween!!!!

My Mom had her annual Halloween party at her house last night. All the kids came and were so excited to play her games and eat her creepy food! As they are all getting older Grandma really needs to step up her game and get some "more challenging" activities for some of them like Tyler :) He is such a great sport and plays amazing with all the other kids. Here is what they dressed as:

Aidan- Care Bear

Anna- Princess

Lucy- Mummy

Tyler: Faceless Man

Ellie- Witch

















Olivia- In this pic a Dancer but she is really Super Girl



















Kian- Wouldn't sit still with his
costume on but he is a Monkey



















Amalie- Again wouldn't put her whole costume on
but she is a white cat

100 YEARS!

Hello I am back!
As I have posted my Grandma passed away last Friday. Bitter sweet is not the word to use but its refreshing to know she is happy and in a better place. She gave this world 100 years! Its amazing to me everything she has accomplished and been through. Her funeral was amazing. I am not a funeral person and actually dread them- Hers was actually really great. A few of her close friends spoke about her life and my sister Amy did an amazing job talking about everything Grandma has taught her. She went from covered wagons to flying in a plane. Losing her husband, daughter and grand daughter among many others in her life. She was really an incredible person! She always accepted me as a grand daughter. I never knew her as anything else. I miss Christmas with fresh baked bread, new slippers she just crochet, bottled everything and my favorite- relish- don't ask me why but I used to eat that out of the jar! She even gave me my own a few times as gifts :)

Pick up sticks in the basement along with the best dolls and home made doll clothes. I miss her and I miss her smiles and hugs. What a beautiful person she was!

Thanks to my sisters who were incredible with her. Giving her the opportunity to spend her last days at home. I really hope all the patience they have will rub off on me a bit. They were all so amazing- dedicating their lives to her for the last few years and even before. Its times like now I realize more and more how great life is. I have some amazing people to look up to in my life and I am so grateful for that.

Myrtle Ethel Rogers Gallyer

Myrtle Ethel Rogers Gallyer 6/7/1908 ~ 10/24/2008 Born in Twin Falls, Idaho to Rufus and Rowena Rogers. She lived a long happy life and was even able to hold in her arms her last great-granddaughter, born 99 years and 11 months after her own birth.She worked hard her whole life, caring for countless foster children and offering service to anyone who would accept it. After 23 years, her prayer was answered when her baby Rowena Gallyer White (1950-1981) was born. She has now rejoined Rowena in heaven along with her dear husband, William Oliver Gallyer (1904-1996) and her granddaughter, Donette Rachelle White (1977-1997). She is remembered, loved, and survived by Kristianne Myrtle (Joshuah) Sandoval, Richard Bruce (Ashlyn) White, Benjamin William (Myung Lim) White, Amy Kathrine Spendlove, Kendra Webster, Jonathan White; 11 great-grandchildren, son-in-law Fred White, and many extended family members and loving neighbors. Funeral services will be held Monday, Oct. 27, 2008 at 11 a.m. in the Cannon 9th Ward, 1250 W. 1400 S. Friends may call at the Larkin Mortuary, 260 E. South Temple Sunday 6-8 p.m. and Monday at the Ward 10-10:45 a.m. Interment Larkin Sunset Gardens. Online condolences: www.larkincares.com

...ryan kent...

Husband Quiz: How well do you know Husband?
Answer these questions about him and find out:

1. Sitting in front of the TV, whats on the screen?
Hunting, sports or How its made...

2. You're out to eat; what kind of dressing does he get on his salad?
Ranch

3. Whats one food he doesn't like? What doesn't he eat?
Tomato's, artichokes and asparagus... All things I like :)

4. you go out to a bar. What does he order?
Ryan is definitely a beer man

5. Where did he go to high school?
West High

6. What size shoe does he wear?
8 1/2 - 9

7. If he was to collect anything, what would it be?
For some reason he collects hats... They used to hang in his "man room" however since that has been converted into a toy/kids/work out room those OLD ugly hats have come down :) Sorry babe.

8. What is his favorite type of sand which?
He like meat- any kind of meat. He isn't picky so he will have PPJ as well.

9. What would this person eat everyday if he could?
Oreos, Better Cheddar crackers and Beer

10. What is his favorite cereal? He likes any kind of cereal.
I'm trying to get him to eat a little better so cereal right now is frosted mini wheat's (They say it helps you concentrate better :)

11. What would he never wear?
Its more of what would I never let him wear- ha ha.
He would never wear a sweater vest.

12. What is his favorite sports team?
NFL: Raiders, NBA: Jazz, College Football: THE U, MLB: Braves

13. Who will he vote for?
He is on the fence... Leaning for Obama

14. Who is his best friend?
ME of course!
He still love his old buddies and calls them him BFFs-
Oby, Dallas, Tatum, Gio, Jim, Josh...

15. What is something you do that he wishes you wouldn't do?
Sleep on him- I am a close sleeper and a magnet.
He moves I move- I am a heater so I make him sweat to death every night :)

16. How many states has he lived in?
Only Utah

17. What is his heritage?
1/2 Southern Utahan- ha ha... (so hick) + 1/2 Spanish

18. You bake him a cake for his birthday, what kind of cake?
He doesn't like cake so Ice cream cake and the kind would be mint chocolate chip

19. Did he play sports in high school?
Football, Soccer and wrestling

20. What could he spend hours doing?
Hunting, Camping, 4wheeling, anything out doors

21. Does he belong to any men's organizations?
(Weird Question) No...

my thoughts are jumbled and I don't make sense

***A quick update before I begin- I made it out of this last weekend alive. Yes I almost froze to death at night but it was actually a blast! Flaming Gorge is BEAUTIFUL. I told Ry we are taking the boat up there first thing next summer! My camera is MIA at the moment so I will post pics once I find it (hopefully soon)






ON a different note... If you remember (or look in my past blogs) my Grandma Murtle who recently turned 100 is again not doing well. This time its much worse than a few months ago when we were told she only has a few days. She cant get out of bed now and really doesn't even wake up along with that her muscles are tightening. I was finally able to get out of school earlier than 9 PM last night so I took full advantage and went over to see her. I sat for a little while next to her holding her hand and playing with her hair. My mind wondered on a million different thoughts as I looked at all the pictures in her room. It has been 11 years since my sister passed. I then see my Grandma who has lived a very active life and is now 100 and my sister who died at the age of 20. What happened in these 2 peoples lives that made one live 80 years longer than the other?
After my sister died I hated the fact the sound of her voice kept slipping away. I tried to hold onto it but it eventually went away completely- I have a few very clear memories of her and each time I think of them I feel like its happening right now. She was such an outgoing person. She had a lot of love for everyone around her and she was so talented. It was after she died and I got a little older that I realized how much she was hiding from us. That she was not always happy and sometimes in a lot of pain. I feel like that so many times in my life.
My dad was consistently my whole life taking from therapist to therapist having me take pills here and there. I never really felt "normal" What is normal?
Sitting with my Grandma my thoughts are obviously all over the place. They go from one thought to another- While sitting there I realized it was October- the end of October. The month I have been fearing for years is in 3 short months- January. That is the moment my life could dramatically change, not just mine but my whole families. My fear is now so intense even though I have a husband who will not let anything happen to me along with every one of my siblings and most importantly, I am an adult and stronger than I have ever been. He cant hurt me now.

--- as much as I say that I cant get myself to believe that.
There is a picture of him in my Grandmas bedroom. It was taken years and years ago. What changed from that time in the picture to what he has become? Can so much pain in someones life make them go crazy? I wonder if I lost my spouse and one of my children if I could actually stay sane. I know I wouldn't do what he did but maybe he just lost his mind. I still will never see justification in his actions but I guess this is me trying to understand. I pick everything apart far to much I guess. So its only 3 months- what ever will happen will happen. I need to stop stressing. Focus on now! I love my Grandma. She is still so beautiful. I tried to call my incredible sister Kristianne who lives with Grandma this morning. No word yet how she is doing today. Have I said before I have amazing siblings? How did I get to be so lucky as to have each one of them?

Face Lift...

Welcome- How the face life?

So not sure how much I "love" it but I think its better than the ornament...

I sure miss that ornament though-sigh-

It has been great to start making new blogger buddies. I cant wait to get on and meet new people, everyone is so amazing and sweet. Hooray!!!

Hope everyone is going to have a wonderful weekend. I am going--- CAMPING.

HELLO.. in October?! Yes, my husband somehow got me to go camping with his friends who are hunting. I am worried half to death I wont wake up in the morning because ill have frozen to death but its the price to pay to have a happy husband. That will be Ryan and I hanging out of our tent roasting mallows. We don't have a cat but our dog will be chillin with us to! I have plenty of homework to do esp. studding for my Psych test next week so it will be a nice little get-a-way. PS. I really like this pink tent I found online.

Last night was pumpkin carving with 2 of my sisters, their kiddos and my hubby. It was a lot of fun. I tried to make a skull and cross bone but I cut the inside of my mans face out. GRR. I wasn't very happy. so now its a circle and some bones coming out the side :) Ill post pics next week. It was great to sit around with the gals I love so much (+RYAN) and chat about their dating life. HEHE.. They are so funny!

My super sweet pal Tara did this really fun vintage photo thing on her blog- I might have let it get out of control on my blog so I hope I'm not fashion faux pas-ing it :)

I loved putting pics of Ryan and I on here:

Ryan and I heading out on the town in Korea

At my Mothers Wedding

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Happy Days Everyone!

Blog Fashion

Okay.. I'm not very good at getting my blog to be like Ms. Susie Homemakers blog. I am trying and as many know I almost change the background daily because I have yet to find one I really love. I ran through pictures by the dozen trying to find one for my heading... Yes the one I have now is a cute ornament my hubby made me last Christmas! What am I doing?

So I am now researching Blog Fashion- I don't want to have my page be a big fashion faux pas...

So many different types of fashion- what says KENDRA and RYAN?
Look at these earings? HELLO I would say you couldn't pay me to wear those things- yet when I googled "Fashion" these baby's popped up! So in my very NON fashion forward self I thought what would people see and know it screamed FASHION? I am definitely in the 'has been' style! I start to like certain things when they are last seasons sales. My dream growing up was to live in San Francisco or New York, now can you see fashionista Kendra strolling down the fashion streets with her knock off Louis Vuitton purse, blue jeans and volcom sweatshirt?
Over the last few months I have actually been very determined to start being for fashionable. Not just me but what comes along with me including my house, husband, dog and of course my BLOG. As I have been studing up on fashion I have found some "OH YEAHs" and some "OH NO YOU DIDN'T" responses- from well ME... I am a critic in my own mind... There are a few things/designers that I know and I figure If i know them- they must be great and anything they make is fashion forward! I am sure all the Lady's of the world know the famous red sole heel! Hello a dream shoe! These hundreds of dollar babys are something to shine about. I think if I had these I would wear a shirt that said- HELLO MY NAME IS KENDRA AND I'M WEARING CHRISTIAN LOUBOUTIN SHOES! Now I don't know if I'm fashionista enough to pull these bad boys off but no matter what Louboutin shoe I was wearing I would still wear that shirt.. Hey maybe ill throw in my ON flip flop and wear that shirt anyway! So in my attempt to become for fashion forward please bear with my sad blog site. It may have a tree ornament for the picture today but it could be a work of art tomorrow! Tune in for all the exciting changes to the Webster Fashion Challenge page blog changing... umm.. thing I guess
I was thinking aloud (like always) maybe if I have a kid that will make my blog cute because it will be full of adorable pictures of someone other than my husband, Harley or me... :)

one week later

one week later...
Thank you to Tara and Mary Leigh for answering my last post. I really needed to hear some of the things you said to me! This week has definitely been filled with pondering thoughts and prayers. I am happy. Loving my life. I am so blessed to have all that I have. Thank you for reaching out to me when I needed someone.

more into the week- school school school hospital
i have been sick the last week or so. having an upset tummy or something. the pain has been getting worse. Thursday night it woke me in the middle of the night. i couldn't get it to go away no matter what i did.
my hero grabbed his screaming wife who was covered in tears and sweat and drove to the ER. pain meds, sleeping pills, a big ugly IV later i was knocked out cold. Ryan got a few more hours of the sports Chanel in on the 5"x 5" tv in the room. blood test came back normal- the grouchy doc told us to go home !!! ????? still drunk off the pills i stumbled to the car (STILL IN PAIN) and went home. family doctors are so much nicer and they make me feel loved :) looking into a few things because the pain is still around- def not as bad! what could it be? they are thinking Crohns disease.... hmm... not really something i want but at least I'm not dieing... hooray... life is great!
**the webster winter fun weekend included finally turning the heater on in the house (ahh..) a few more letters and boxes of candy plus a funny shirt to send my lil bro for the next package!
DI run... yeah they still only have crap- yummy dinner with family- Addy is getting too big.
haunted house- almost killed my poor husband, clowns- chainsaw man and Kendra don't mix but great time to spend with kely though.
one day at a time- my family is amazing, my work is amazing, my dog is amazing and my husband is incredibly amazing. my life is so blessed!

Finding Faith

Finding what you really believe in has not been simple for me. I grew up going to the LDS church learning one thing on Sundays and seeing another thing during the week. Obviously made life a bit confusing so what did I do? Ignore most of it. I remember hearing people talk in church saying how they "know" certain things or had an "AHH" moment that changed their life. Hmm. Sounded good to me so I mimicked it all. Through the years I continued to shadow others and their "beliefs" That then lead me to one day being alone. The people I followed were gone out of my daily life and I was left with nothing. I tried to make up what I "believed" and remember what others were saying to me but it left me with wrong answers and eventually becoming bitter. Bitter about God? No- but bitter about religion. I started to hear these answers to questions that didn't make sense in my life- what I went through in the past didn't add up to what everyone was telling me. Of course people don't make up a religion- I know that, however it was things they were telling me was right out of their scriptures. I tried for over a year to juggle my feelings, thoughts and believe me I was actively trying to find the truth for me.
I finally was left with no answers and more angry with everything than I was when I started. Life continued on and I tried to just get all this "belief" talk out of my life. NO SUCH LUCK! Not only living in Utah but having close family be part of this didn't leave me with it out of my life. It was actively pushed at me, talked about and life was revolved around it many times, Leading me to become more angry!
In January 2008 my best bud and little brother left to serve a mission for this belief I was so angry with. When he left It brought me back a few years to the "alone" feeling I felt that first time. When he left he asked me to try and find my belief again. Oh GREAT! This again! I started doing things like meeting with other missionaries that tried to answer some questions I had- didn't have much luck with them other than getting a few things straightened out and getting to a place I didn't feel as much "anger"

So here I am now- Feeling pretty comfortable with who I am and the path I am living. My belief= God. This may sound silly but I feel like there might be more. I am not sure but I am one of those people that for me and my life I want to completely eliminate any questions I have other wise I sit and stew on them everyday until I resolve it. So after this last weekend when there was a conference I was hoping I could hear from others- what it was like for them. Its been so long since I have listened to anything and I have pushed it out of my life so much that I don't remember the simple things like what certain people are called. Yeah that sounds really dumb but by pushing it away so much it was the only way for me to feel happy and not have that anger. So for those who have a belief and esp. for those who have heard this conference. Can I ask your feelings? I know some people are afraid to speak about this topic but I thought your suppose to- maybe I am wrong and remembering things wrong but regardless I am someone reaching out to anyone. I don't care if I don't know you and you stumbled across this blog. I want to know what you think-