tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post7545983165643192324..comments2023-10-21T06:25:18.294-06:00Comments on Calling All Angels: a wee bit controlling?Ryan.Kendra.Makenzie.Trackerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06190931045172497736noreply@blogger.comBlogger11125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-22176122955327807902012-05-07T11:51:53.581-06:002012-05-07T11:51:53.581-06:00I seriously don't even know what it will be li...I seriously don't even know what it will be like to be pregnant again. ONE BIG ANXIOUS MESS! Ha, not much you can do to help it. ;) <br /><br />I like different names. As long as they aren't too made up and weird. I prefer different over using things like bathtub for a name. ;)Aleshahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17329787388902240892noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-61146130767050415282012-05-06T12:58:04.869-06:002012-05-06T12:58:04.869-06:00I am sure it is normal for you and Ryan to both fe...I am sure it is normal for you and Ryan to both feel this way. Your heart is still recovering from not have Makenzie with you, physically. And as another commentor posted--it may be self-preservation. Please breathe! And in time you will hold that sweet little boy, cuddle him and know that God is watching over you all. I am sure that in time you will relax more. But you do need time. :-) Hang in there Kendra!Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-66792446946454322542012-05-05T15:37:42.633-06:002012-05-05T15:37:42.633-06:00I can't say I know how you feel, but I think a...I can't say I know how you feel, but I think about y'all often! As far as the clothes go for Baby, I'm sure you will get TONS of hand-me-downs as the months go on. I'm not sure if there is a Goodwill near you, but they usually have a good baby clothes selection in the stores here in Georgia. Oh yeah, have you tried MAKING clothes for him?! Maybe, just MAYBE, Walmart or a craft store near you would have fabric that is grey and striped! You can find patterns for clothes online for free; you just have to look in the right spot! :)Paigehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01061646161942010972noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-90494211286415216072012-05-05T09:54:41.076-06:002012-05-05T09:54:41.076-06:00I think (think, I'm not presuming to know) tha...I think (think, I'm not presuming to know) that it's just self preservation - protecting of yourself. And we all do that. I really wish I could remove all of that anxiety for you so you get some peace to just breathe , all I can offer is that if it were a friend of yours and not you who had lost their child and if she had told you those exact words you've written would probably makes sense in the way that you would totally understand her emotions and that she was just preparing for the very worst, simply because she's lived through the very worst. You would have no judgement nor confusion or anxiety in what she said because it would just make sense that she would be experiencing those awful and exhausting but understandable under the circumstances emotions. In my mind you've done the best thing in getting your thoughts out on 'paper'. I'm so sorry you're having to go through this.Seeing Each Dayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06469816981098332908noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-66201088836653836542012-05-04T21:56:20.621-06:002012-05-04T21:56:20.621-06:00Have I told you how fantastically happy I am for y...Have I told you how fantastically happy I am for you? I am. So, so, so much. Can't wait to meet your Little Man. <br /><br />Good things are ahead. I can feel it. <br /><br />xoxo, <br />AmandaSunshine Promiseshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12778302283088319607noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-21393505227781852252012-05-04T19:43:55.189-06:002012-05-04T19:43:55.189-06:00I WISH I could shut off my brain. I sometimes thi...I WISH I could shut off my brain. I sometimes think it is my thoughts that are going to ensure whether Baby M lives past nine and a half months or not. People don't mean anything by it but they tell me I have to think positively "for the baby". As IF I have control over what I think. That is a luxury left for people who have not lost children. I am doing the opposite of you. I am 28 weeks pregnant and I won't buy a thing. I can't look at Maxie's things. I can't bear the thought of going through any of it. I am just SO heartbroken and scared. At least you know that the stuff doesn't matter. It is probably your brains way of giving you something to concentrate on and like you said, control. I think all of us mommas deserve a little control back in our lives.Abby Levisshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15748394086960661826noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-67546050265625070402012-05-04T18:03:34.307-06:002012-05-04T18:03:34.307-06:00Gotta love when you know things but you can't ...Gotta love when you know things but you can't seem to actually act on it. I do that all the time in my grief. You can't help your feelings. I always think "at least I know I am crazy right?"Aleshahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17329787388902240892noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-73103153846523298452012-05-04T17:40:39.596-06:002012-05-04T17:40:39.596-06:00I can sympathize. With our boys I refused to let t...I can sympathize. With our boys I refused to let them wear anything with sports on it, no team logos or anything to do with sports at all because I hate sports so much. I even had to tell people buying him things for his birthday and Christmas "NO sports themed stuff!"Pogue Mahonehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01595398692089410470noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-36637306831345780762012-05-04T15:24:51.570-06:002012-05-04T15:24:51.570-06:00Hello, you don't know me but I feel like I kno...Hello, you don't know me but I feel like I know you, I've been 'following' you could call it 'stalking' actually for a few years now...breathe. Just take one GIANT huge breath in and slowly let it out. I believe this is the 'control' in your life because of the uncontrolable situation that happened with your sweet Kenzie. Be in control, it's fine. I can't even image what I'd do. You two are wonderful parents and baby 'T' has such a wonderful life in store for him :D with your hubby wanting something camo or antlers in his room. Just a suggestion in the 'suggestion box' pic out a lot of fabric, the different patterns, strips, polka dots and have one be camo. Get it in grey and have baby 'T' bedding made with different boxes of your fav fabric. As far as the antlers go...get a crap ton of them and stack them so they're all staggered(hoping this makes sense, I can see it it my mind) you can use it as a focal point in the room above your rocker/glider or as his mobile, very seccured of coarse :D oh and spray paint them all either the 'pop' of color you're loving for his room or better yet, grey. Like a slate gray, it would be soooo cute!! I had the same problem with my man's room. I needed it to be something 'funky' so I made his moble and and had everything made for his nursery set. I don't know how to tag it on my blog but it's posted Dec 2011. wow sorry this is obnoxiously looong :D best of luck to you guys!! Rock that bump and vent whenever you need to!!!Lindsay Hendersonhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08413602661245501862noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-4234138900103393932012-05-04T11:31:44.683-06:002012-05-04T11:31:44.683-06:00Hi Kendra! I read your blog , but have never poste...Hi Kendra! I read your blog , but have never posted. I love the camouflage part of your post today, it made me giggle! I think most dad's would do the same decor if they could. I know you said you thought the things in his room weren't really important. While that might be true to some extent, don't feel guilty. There's a new little fella coming and so much to be excited about! Have fun and be happy while you wait on baby T! Have a great weekend! Blessings to you!<br /><br />Allison<br />ColoradoAllisonhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06280818601161275714noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-8184972152313151012012-05-04T11:19:48.565-06:002012-05-04T11:19:48.565-06:00Thanks for sharing, helps to know I'm not alon...Thanks for sharing, helps to know I'm not alone. Ledge has started wearing 18 mo shirts, next in line... 2T. Something we never got to. Weird as it sounds it gives me anxiety, while I've been able to avoid it, next little while I won't be able to. Who would have thought something like this would bring on so much anxiety? <br /><br />And hey, if all the control helps right now, let it come. Do what you need to do. I'm guessing you'll be a little uptight until the little guy passes 5 months... something I can't wait for, to have Ledge reach 19 months. <br /><br />I can't wait to learn this little guy's real name!!Ashleyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17807238490395570269noreply@blogger.com