tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post5356091894942979105..comments2023-10-21T06:25:18.294-06:00Comments on Calling All Angels: Argh!!!!Ryan.Kendra.Makenzie.Trackerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06190931045172497736noreply@blogger.comBlogger44125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-40433332304346652302011-12-20T12:35:00.190-07:002011-12-20T12:35:00.190-07:00I can't even imagine your loss and have no exp...I can't even imagine your loss and have no experience to compare it to, but I think that you have absolutely every right in the world to feel that way.Briannehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13912537536873172352noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-27142607566274832082011-12-19T08:36:35.579-07:002011-12-19T08:36:35.579-07:00First - I'm so sorry that you have to live thi...First - I'm so sorry that you have to live this life you've been given. Second - you are not alone in feeling the way that you do. My son's 2nd angelversary was ten times as hard as the 1st. I'm at the point where I hate the world and question God in just about every single way possible.<br /><br />You'll continue to be in my prayers and I hope that me and you both can find the peace we're so desperately seeking.Ashley Quarleshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12649907814487220886noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-9537122758725714862011-12-17T21:11:02.284-07:002011-12-17T21:11:02.284-07:00All I know is that Hevenly Father hears your praye...All I know is that Hevenly Father hears your prayers, thoughts, words, everything! He knows you and your needs, wants, desires of your hearts. Sometimes he waits to give you what your longing for till the last minute...till there is almost nothing left in your self, till your hanging on by a string. Then, a miracle happens. And somehow, it works out to be the most amazing, perfect timing. Hang in there girl, he knows you, he loves you..and I belive he is and always be there to listen, even if it doesnt seem like it.Mindeehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07170028120288558364noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-72589977760697086142011-12-17T18:47:55.885-07:002011-12-17T18:47:55.885-07:00Girl, let it out. It really does help. So sorry ab...Girl, let it out. It really does help. So sorry about not getting a positive on the test. Still praying for that. And way to tell them in the last paragraph. It made me laugh. Love ya.Ashleyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17807238490395570269noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-46089081787861778032011-12-16T23:39:01.338-07:002011-12-16T23:39:01.338-07:00Kendra I honestly ache for you! I can't imagi...Kendra I honestly ache for you! I can't imagine what you must be feeling! It's NOT FAIR! I wish this stupid life were fair! I will continue to pray and think of you and Ryan. I got my cook book this week and I cried when I tried to tell my husband what it was, And who you, Ryan, and Makenzie were. I really hope and pray that next month will be the one! Don't give up hope! Makenzie would not want you to give up! You are a beautiful deserving mother who deserves to hold a beautiful healthy baby in your arms again soon! Best wishes! Lots of love and prayers! KelsiKelsihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16419717761717452872noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-51548748875107231412011-12-16T21:49:07.545-07:002011-12-16T21:49:07.545-07:00You don't know me at all, but I love reading y...You don't know me at all, but I love reading your blog about your beautiful daughter. I am mad for you. I don't think any parent should have to go through what you and others have had to do :(. It truly breaks my heart so you definitely don't need to apologize or justify your behavior. You are allowed to be mad, it isn't fair and knowing there is a reason behind everything and that Heavenly Father does hear you and does answer your prayers even if the timing is not what you want helps, but it still is not easy. I know it won't take MaKenzie's place, not even a little bit, but I hope you have another baby soon!!Ryan & Amandahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11573616022020613588noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-24825494386435209772011-12-16T14:38:45.620-07:002011-12-16T14:38:45.620-07:00Hi Kendra. I sort of blog-stalk you. Sorry! I a...Hi Kendra. I sort of blog-stalk you. Sorry! I am a single mom of four boys. Blessed, I am. I had a little talk with God this week, too. I asked him why it's okay that my boys don't have a father... at least one that gives a care in the world about them. I asked him why it's okay that I'm alone, doing this, trying and failing. I don't know much. I get angry, pretty much daily, at God. I ask Him "why" all the time, I think. I do know this, though, Kendra. He DOES know you, by name. He DOES hear you, every time. He DOES surround you with unseen angels every second of the day. He DOES love you. You ARE His daughter. And, I guess I am too. Life is not fair, I know. But, I can tell you that you are in the prayers of people you DO know, and SO MANY that you might never meet... It's never too late for happily ever after. Love, Heidistandtallnowhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05371759930425854987noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-74976862717688120502011-12-16T12:20:41.910-07:002011-12-16T12:20:41.910-07:00You have every right to your feelings. Praying th...You have every right to your feelings. Praying that God hears you and gives you the little one you so deserve to have. <br />Peace and strength during this holiday season.glendahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01542197885599674975noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-43592978875355802072011-12-16T12:19:34.683-07:002011-12-16T12:19:34.683-07:00I really do have the best friends here! Thank you ...I really do have the best friends here! Thank you all for understanding my --- at times--- irrational rants. I think it's healthy for all of us to let it out. No matter how big or small something is. When it's in your life and happening to you- it's always huge! I know it's only round 2 and I can't expect to be fertile myrtle here. I just wanted the "perfect" senario. Ha. Yeah right. Well thank you all again for your support and sweet comments. Love y'all!Ryan.Kendra.Makenzie.Trackerhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06190931045172497736noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-70919944335270828132011-12-16T10:09:58.755-07:002011-12-16T10:09:58.755-07:00Oh Kendra you have every right to have these thoug...Oh Kendra you have every right to have these thoughts and feelings. Grief is such a hard thing and then to add in the struggles of having another baby it just isnt fair. What I would do to get you and Ryan a baby. You guys are so deserving. Im sorry that seeing others children hurts... it just isnt fair. So pout and through a tantrum! You deserve it sometimes. Its better to work through the pain rather than trying to cover it up. Im still praying, wishing and hoping for you guys! Much love!!brigettehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03762214896655486508noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-76393500440091174332011-12-16T09:41:06.936-07:002011-12-16T09:41:06.936-07:00After reading this last night I cried and cried an...After reading this last night I cried and cried and prayed so hard for you. I was hoping for good news when I checked your blog yesterday. Dang it! I'm so so sorry! I hope you feel a little better today and I hope you feel peace and comfort from our Heavenly Father. Please keep having faith and the answers will come. You are amazing!Kristyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12411939360516936396noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-17778913050534018582011-12-16T05:07:55.901-07:002011-12-16T05:07:55.901-07:00Don't apologize for feeling that way, you do h...Don't apologize for feeling that way, you do have every right to do so!! It is just so unfair that you lost your precious baby and that you aren't pregnant yet. But you will be soon, I am sure! You don't know me and I live half the World away, but I actually dreamed about your blog the other night, and read that you had two more children, a boy and then a girl. Weird, but I thought I'd still share that dream. I admire you for your strength! Keep celebrating Kenzie day. I will pray for your family. Greetings from Germany, RonjaRonjahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05477816516724884966noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-68956057100645520432011-12-16T04:02:17.310-07:002011-12-16T04:02:17.310-07:00Hey look, Kendra, everybody understands you. The p...Hey look, Kendra, everybody understands you. The pain, the frustration, the anger, the taking it out on the people closest to you - nobody is going to tell you off. I believe that we are all miserable that we cannot help.<br />You'll make it. One way or the other. Keep shouting on your blog, if it makes you feel better.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-51934117411610971002011-12-15T23:44:20.651-07:002011-12-15T23:44:20.651-07:00You are incredible, if I had one wish for you...we...You are incredible, if I had one wish for you...well it would be for you to have a baby, but my second wish for you would be for you to be able to step outside of yourself so then you would be able to truly and honestly see yourself and see how strong and amazing you really are. Hang in there, I know you will be blessed with a baby, when Makenzie and her sibling have had their fill of fun your baby will come to you.Brittneyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16102995536885211090noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-56602463032493415562011-12-15T23:36:27.408-07:002011-12-15T23:36:27.408-07:00You truly are amazing, I cannot imagine what it wo...You truly are amazing, I cannot imagine what it would be like to lose a child, but I am pretty sure if I did I would think and feel a lot like you do. Even though we have never met I think we would get along great. If I could have one wish for you...well obviously it would be a baby so the second wish would be that you could step out of yourself so that you could get an honest look at yourself, because then you would be able to see how amazing and strong and incredible you truly are. Hang in there I know you will be blessed with a baby, but I will keep praying for you.Brittneyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16102995536885211090noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-51078375425657168192011-12-15T23:17:15.686-07:002011-12-15T23:17:15.686-07:00You be mad and pissed off as much as you need to.....You be mad and pissed off as much as you need to...even a little more than you need if thats what makes you feel better. Hard thing is is that you are a great person, you reak of goodness....so you feel silly for having "mean" days...you be as mean as you want...even if it is weeks....no one, not even people that have lost a child, feels exactly as you do...no one completely understands EVERYTHING that you are going through. You are doing awesome. You are in my continuous prayers, I wish I could ship Miss SoPhee (my naughty 3 year old) to you some times :) I think that she might take your need away from exhaustion for atleast 60 seconds :) You are an inspiration....be mad as hell sweetie! And the fact that you are still so thankful for your shoes.....made me smile. Good Luck Hon...heres to next month!kentklan.blogspot.comhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00723935743566040507noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-68633176513243772892011-12-15T22:29:49.258-07:002011-12-15T22:29:49.258-07:00We have been trying for a baby for a year and i wa...We have been trying for a baby for a year and i was so certain this month was it-and same as you i had a visitor 5 days early wtf?! I was so angry-my youngest is 4 and i have wanted another baby for what feels like forever! I am far less deserving than you and i want more than anything for you to be pregnant! I tried for 4 years for my first and i know the pain and anguish of everyone around you having baby showers and being pregnant and then having their second and third babies while i still had none...it hurts more than anyone will ever know! I wish you luck and pray for you! Stay strong! -TiffanyTiffany Annhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09409960906166464421noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-65601094805734668812011-12-15T22:09:51.395-07:002011-12-15T22:09:51.395-07:00I am so sorry for all you have and are continuing ...I am so sorry for all you have and are continuing to go through, I have been following your blog for a few years and your growth is amazing. I don't think you have any idea how many people you are reaching and helping by sharing your story. You are a beautiful soul. The Psalms are full of King David crying out to the Lord, both in joy and pain. Psalm 142:1-2 I cry out to the Lord with my voice; with my voice to the Lord I make my supplication. I pour out my complaint before Him; I declare before him my trouble.Karenhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15571293286466655741noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-8709749827929718362011-12-15T21:47:21.678-07:002011-12-15T21:47:21.678-07:00If it gives you any peace at all, I've felt th...If it gives you any peace at all, I've felt this way EVERY single month since we began trying, and I don't have the same stresses to deal with! Trying to get pregnant... SUCKS!!! Those snotty-faced jerks who only have to share passionate eye contact to get knocked up? I HATE them! Completely irrationally, but with deep loathing, I despise them. It's a little like being a manic depressive, this whole situation. One month, I was three days late. I kept trying not to tell my husband, but he came home and offered me a glass of wine and I grinned and told him I maybe couldn't 'cause I was three days late. Walked into the bathroom literally three minutes later and guess what? NOT pregnant. Please, oh please, take solice in the fact that you're in good company in the very BEST of times, and you're every bit entitled not to be in the best of times. HANG IN THERE!Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05264863253531187300noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-85243605977530817262011-12-15T21:06:04.790-07:002011-12-15T21:06:04.790-07:00The biggest part of trusting God is to do it blind...The biggest part of trusting God is to do it blindly. Not knowing what is in store for your future, and still choosing to follow and trust Him. He does hear you Kendra, He does. <br />You are entitled to feel the way you do today, and any day you want. You have been through a lot, and no one expects you to be all sugar and spice all of the time. Bitterness and anger are part of being human. You have feelings and thoughts and expressing them in your own way is what will help you heal. <br />We are here for you. You and Ryan are in my prayers!Robinhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14097524245814056758noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-89969116310318822682011-12-15T20:54:05.570-07:002011-12-15T20:54:05.570-07:00Just a suggestion, but have you tried fertilityfri...Just a suggestion, but have you tried fertilityfriend.com and taking your temp at the same time every morning before standing up out of bed? I know its only been 2 cycles so far, but I'm praying for you! If you are still having trouble getting a positive after next month, you might want to consider "temping"--the ovulation tests are not as accurate as the other fertility signs and you only have a 24 hr window for success, so you might be missing your window. stay strong and dont feel guilty for feeling the way you do! :)Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02293724213007736104noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-38504325517369609002011-12-15T18:50:54.112-07:002011-12-15T18:50:54.112-07:00Oh Kendra, the last part of this blog entry makes ...Oh Kendra, the last part of this blog entry makes me laugh. I've never lost a child but I can only imagine that all the emotions you are feeling are completely normal. I hope and pray that your hopes and dreams of having a little one in your arms again come true. I don't even know you but I know you deserve to have that baby you long for. Thanks for posting about your journey through all this. You seem like an amazing person.Kerrihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17517778294222108411noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-31758063751592986282011-12-15T18:49:59.265-07:002011-12-15T18:49:59.265-07:00Its ok everyone can have there days... love you ke...Its ok everyone can have there days... love you kendrajillhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00478409150149737408noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-57273425303396735742011-12-15T18:48:42.136-07:002011-12-15T18:48:42.136-07:00DANG IT! I'm so sorry :( I know nothing will...DANG IT! I'm so sorry :( I know nothing will help until you find that positive test, it sure doesn't seem fair. I think you are perfectly entitled to your rants every now and then. Hang in there, (that positive test is just around the corner) fingers crossed for next time!Melissahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13533336360871671996noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-88256686806033623532011-12-15T18:41:37.211-07:002011-12-15T18:41:37.211-07:00This second year has been so much more difficult f...This second year has been so much more difficult for me too. I didn't think that was even possible, because the first year hurt so much. I sat in Kristen's room and cried my eyes out today. I too am hoping for a better day tomorrow. Hopefully for you the third time will be the charm and baby will be on the way.Kristen's momhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15699058407784864548noreply@blogger.com