tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post4672690978821045720..comments2023-10-21T06:25:18.294-06:00Comments on Calling All Angels: griefRyan.Kendra.Makenzie.Trackerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06190931045172497736noreply@blogger.comBlogger10125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-50571134858184425942010-12-20T08:15:50.445-07:002010-12-20T08:15:50.445-07:00The remembering is hard. The missing is harder. T...The remembering is hard. The missing is harder. The forgetting is impossible. The love is forever. Keep going, Sweety. You're doing all the right things by expressing how you feel and putting your energy in such worthwhile things. Just keep going and doing. You have lots of things to accomplish and Kenzie is right there with you. Every project, every day, every wish, every tear, she is there with you. You can't see her or feel her but when those "storms" of grief come (and they will), she will be right there with you in your mind and in your heart. Her memories will always be with you. No one can ever take them away from you and Ryan. I love you guys so much. I love your little Makenzie. When I think of her (every day), I can smile now, even though it is sometimes through tears. Much love and {{{hugs}}} Aunt MAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-34658504010420433492010-12-19T17:29:07.906-07:002010-12-19T17:29:07.906-07:00Hi Kendra, Sam's wife (Sam from work) here. I...Hi Kendra, Sam's wife (Sam from work) here. I read your blog off and on, and I wanted you to know I've been mindful of your little family the past couple of weeks. I was really affected by your experience when we met last year, the day after your sweet Makenzie left. That night I was brought back to a place I hadn't been in a long time--that raw grief you talk about here. It's been over six years since our daughter died, but you're right, the grief can and will hit at any time. Even still. But, however hard the grief is, it can also be refreshing. To come out of that deep pain for a time and just bask in the love for a perfect daughter is truly a gift. I wish you all the best, especially this time of year.Sarahhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10165279939874277036noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-20223066440367254632010-12-18T07:34:46.858-07:002010-12-18T07:34:46.858-07:00Kendra,
I found your blog through the Sullenger...Kendra,<br />I found your blog through the Sullenger's. I am so sorry for what you're going through. I have never lost a child, but my mom passed away when I was 11 in a car accident. You're right....grief is always there. It isn't quite as frequent after almost 19 years, but I still have days where I feel like I've been punched the stomach. Hang in there....there are so many people who love you and are praying for you. Your Heavenly Father loves you and is very aware of your needs.summergibbshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08547662490915194336noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-41909259039569854112010-12-18T01:18:14.946-07:002010-12-18T01:18:14.946-07:00You amaze me, Kendra. So many are afraid to face t...You amaze me, Kendra. So many are afraid to face their grief with such honesty -- to bare their soul the way you do. Perhaps they can't express it as well, as poignantly. Or perhaps they are afraid they won't be able to carry on. I don't know, but I do know that your honesty makes me brave. It makes me think. It makes me feel and ache and wish it were all so very different for you, for Makenzie, for me. Thinking about you.Victoria Stronghttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14659656789092126389noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-5541393887311557522010-12-17T20:05:01.884-07:002010-12-17T20:05:01.884-07:00Kendra, I will never stop being amazed by you. I ...Kendra, I will never stop being amazed by you. I know you are hurting and the pain is unbelieveable, but you have continued. You have kept on going. There are so so many people who would have given up--found a way to hide the grief in a permanent state of drunkeness or being high or whatever. You have not. You have survived. You are getting through it. You are living. And I can't think of a single better way to honor Makenzie.Devonhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17316736355666634824noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-83829631062024124232010-12-17T20:02:09.412-07:002010-12-17T20:02:09.412-07:00I have a story to go along with your post today. ...I have a story to go along with your post today. My thoughts are with you as you endure this difficult time of year. This was written by one of the angel moms on our blog. It is so true indeed. Love, Nicole - Mia's mom ^i^<br /><br />Meet my Friend Grief<br /><br /><br />"I would like you to meet my best friend. His name is Grief. We met each other unexpectedly and became friends instantly. He follows me wherever I go. When I go to sleep at night he tucks me in and whispers in my ear, "I'll see you in the morning." When I awake surely he has held true to his promise and greets me with a frown. He frowns because he is sad he had to meet me. He is the most loyal friend in the world. You can forget him for a while and not even think about him and he is willing to return at the drop of a dime. Grief is unselfish though. When other friends are around, he takes a back seat. He is quieted by the chattering of my other friends. It's nice to have a break from Him. Sometimes he's unrelenting and can be a drag. Other times I am grateful he's my friend because when he's around I know I haven't Forgotten.<br /><br />A while back he was my very best friend. Slowly other friends are taking his place and he doesn't visit as often. I have even made friends with Joy again. I thought I had lost her friendship forever. Joy is a good friend too. Hopefully one day I will be able to be as good friends with Joy as I was with Grief. Maybe one day we can all be friends and share the same heart. To live in the Joy of today, to remember the grief of yesterday and to love all of my tomorrows. When all three of us can attain the same heart, I know our new best friend will be peace."<br />-by Michelle KrainichThe Holland Familyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16450811780279737393noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-43348663416656283752010-12-17T19:44:38.279-07:002010-12-17T19:44:38.279-07:00I am so sorry Kendra!! I have not been able to st...I am so sorry Kendra!! I have not been able to stop thinking about you guys. I hope that you can feel everyone's love for you. I will be praying for you and Ryan!! Sending lots of BIG hugs your way!!Aleriehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16407066028515187182noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-17144827946574375222010-12-17T17:23:42.823-07:002010-12-17T17:23:42.823-07:00Hugs. I can't even imagine what you and Ryan w...Hugs. I can't even imagine what you and Ryan were/are feeling, but I am so, so glad you were with eachother and can lean on eachother when you need to. I think part of why grief often hits when we don't expect it is because we busy ourselves around those 'important dates'-we make plans, we do things to remember, we focus on the good memories and when the busyness ends we are left....left to be still and in our own mind adn think-and that is when the emotions overflow. I hope during it all you remembered the joy you gave Kenzie, the peace you showered her with, the love you showered her with....and continue to do all of those things. I know she was so proud of you those days, celebrating her amazing, touching life, her incredible brave and strong spirit...I hope in that you celebrated what incredible parents you are!! You have helped keep that incredible spirit alive, you keep her story going by letting others in on her life, on your life. You truly are touching people every day-what an impact your life, and your precious baby's life is making. Always thinking of you, sending you love, hugs, strength and prayers. Love EmEmmanoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-62838829787699811182010-12-17T15:41:14.114-07:002010-12-17T15:41:14.114-07:00Ah Kendra, I don't really know what to say. I ...Ah Kendra, I don't really know what to say. I have thought of and prayed for you so much in these last two weeks -- especially Sunday - Tuesday and kept checking in here for updates on how you were doing. I am sorry that the grief still surprised you. But glad that in some ways you are okay with that because, as you said, you will probably always have that grief. What you said about not even wanting it to be gone makes total sense. I never really thought about that before, but it sounds right to me that though you don't want the pain, you still want the grief because it is a part of her (and your) reality. I hope the pain lessens and the peace overcomes it still for you so you are not hurting quite so much. But your grief dance will still be even then -- I hope your still spending some of that dance having morning dance parties with Kenzie.Shawnahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03569796313601629565noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-85243270707496322712010-12-17T15:36:40.679-07:002010-12-17T15:36:40.679-07:00Oh man Kendra I am so sorry. You are so right thou...Oh man Kendra I am so sorry. You are so right though in all of this. I wish I would have checked up on you after the fact rather than just the day of. I need to do better. Im so sorry you are feeling that huge wave of grief it hurts so bad and your right just cathes you off guard. You sure made Kenzies day amazing though. I bet she is so very proud of you!! Much love Kendra!!brigettehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03762214896655486508noreply@blogger.com