tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post3622848356552429068..comments2023-10-21T06:25:18.294-06:00Comments on Calling All Angels: Getting Used to it.Ryan.Kendra.Makenzie.Trackerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06190931045172497736noreply@blogger.comBlogger10125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-34666724096811992842012-03-29T15:39:37.644-06:002012-03-29T15:39:37.644-06:00Kendra,
This is so beautifully written. I truly ...Kendra,<br /><br />This is so beautifully written. I truly appreciate you honestly sharing your feelings with the world, with us. It's amazing. Someone once told me that when someone you desperately love dies, you never get over the hurt and it never goes away. Instead, your heart just gets stronger in it's ability to cope with the hurt. I thought that was a really good way to make sense of losing someone. <br />Hugs,<br />Megan G.Meganhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16486738449509756064noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-29307838372438589412012-03-29T09:12:34.331-06:002012-03-29T09:12:34.331-06:00This post makes me cry! I don't have any words...This post makes me cry! I don't have any words of comfort to say but I just want you to know that I admire you so much for sharing your most tender feelings with the world. I am one of those people who will sometimes get overwhelmed with all the sadness in the world and I often ask God why did their child have to die, or their spouse, or why can't that perfect deserving couple get pregnant. I sometimes get so overwhelmed with the sadness of it that I forget that God has a hand in all things and that he will help us through everything because life isn't fair and heartbreaking things happen. You are so amazing and no matter what you are feeling just let yourself feel it. You are always in my thoughts and prayers and I wish you every happiness.Jared & Shannonhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08180737137378536537noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-47613341835935335562012-03-28T23:31:21.258-06:002012-03-28T23:31:21.258-06:00Tears in my eyes so well put! You are so strong an...Tears in my eyes so well put! You are so strong and amazing kendra! You have such a way with your words!! Thank you for your example and honesty. You help me through my grief more than you know! Praying for you and loving your family so much!! Great big hugs!brigettehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03762214896655486508noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-47985401011063585762012-03-28T21:43:06.515-06:002012-03-28T21:43:06.515-06:00I think you are healing. You are forever scared, n...I think you are healing. You are forever scared, no doubt about that, but you are in the healing process. At times you can see and feel your scar so much better than others, but other times, it seems to blend in with the world around you. You will always remember your sweet girl, and miss her and love her like crazy. She was very much here, but the unfortunate loss of your precious girl has left a scar on you, that needs to heal. You are healing, Kendra. God is helping you. Makenzie will always be remembered, never could be replaced and is so dearly loved. <br />I'm praying so hard for you!Robinhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14097524245814056758noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-34297084140195177772012-03-28T21:00:31.270-06:002012-03-28T21:00:31.270-06:00I still feel this way about my husband. July will ...I still feel this way about my husband. July will be 5 years and I still miss him like it was yesterday. I think of watching him die every single day. I resent this life I have now and compare it to the life I would have had every single day. I resent that he never got to meet his son. I am now engaged with a new baby girl, but they do not fill the holes. I will always want him here and I will always hurt. The hurt has lessened, but I still scream. I think we do just get "used" to these new lives we have now. We still yearn for the life we did or could have, but we can not live in resent forever. Filling those places with someone similar (baby, husband) does not make it go away. It just eases the pain. I hope it also makes us appreciate those that we have now, but I still struggle with that. it will be a forever battle for you and Ryan, but you will find comfort in this new baby. You are soooo strong. I have people tell me how strong I am all the time, even though I do not feel it. People see what we don't. They also don't see us behind closed doors. Stay strong.The Fuchs*Pietrzak'shttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11638428702325913124noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-86736439755823037072012-03-28T16:57:30.471-06:002012-03-28T16:57:30.471-06:00I sometimes think what I went through and what you...I sometimes think what I went through and what you and Ryan went through is simply unbelieveable. How did we do it? I really can't tell you. I feel the same way. I had to come to a point in my life that I had to try something different. I haven't forgetten how hard it was and it still really hurts but.....there had to be a way to be happy again, and as I've said before, I wanted to not just get through life but really, really live it. It would not do justice to those I love who are no longer here on earth to be so sad all the time. My situation is so different from yours. A mother should never, ever lose their child. It goes against nature but losing a spouse....oh, dear...it isn't easy to sleep alone, eat alone, pray alone, go to the show alone, go to restaurants along, think make decisions alone, and to drive places alone. Well, you get the idea. But I think we've both come very far. Time cannot erase all the hurt. I don't think it is supposed to. But those days, months, and years do give our hearts and our minds the time to heal. Time gave me a chance to find a way to deal with the pain and hurting and find a place where it is not front and center all the time. I hope it is the same with you and Ryan. My little Braxton helped me to heal. His life was not meant to do that but miraculously it did - he will know someday how much it meant to me to have his dad, mother and him in my life. Of course, a new person will never replace a lost love but my new person has brought joy back into my life. I have a feeling your new baby will bring a lot of healing into your life - not to replace Kenzie - but this child will give you and Ryan will be parents again. It will be wonderful. Your children will know about Kenzie because you will tell them about her and how marvelous it is for them to be siblings and to be your children. We are all connected and everyone that touches our lives is meant to be there at that time, that place, and for a special and wonderful reason. I hope you know how much you are loved and how excited we are for you and Ryan.Auntie EMhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12817854093078111017noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-62700154181329458172012-03-28T14:51:25.260-06:002012-03-28T14:51:25.260-06:00Very well put.Very well put.Kristalynnhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15343110479962671896noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-35342010988255684512012-03-28T14:01:30.182-06:002012-03-28T14:01:30.182-06:00Wow! What a beautiful but sad post. I am in tears ...Wow! What a beautiful but sad post. I am in tears just reading this and actually feel stupid commenting at all for I have no words of real comfort that would even come close to making it even a tiny bit better for you. Just know that you have so many people, me included who think and pray for you and Ryan and who wish we could take even a fraction of your pain and hurt away.<br />I wish nothing but happiness for you all and this new wonderful life you are creating because you deserve that.<br /><br />Respectfully,<br />Erin~Erinhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17149743495986902049noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-90928574673544429712012-03-28T13:54:51.334-06:002012-03-28T13:54:51.334-06:00Kendra, this totally made me cry. It is so so true...Kendra, this totally made me cry. It is so so true. I feel like getting use to it is so hard. Somedays I do better than others. Regardless is still just totally sucks. :( ♥Aleshahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17329787388902240892noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3926880480919201378.post-9332201748866866882012-03-28T13:04:30.204-06:002012-03-28T13:04:30.204-06:00Oh, Kendra. My heart is so heavy as I cry reading...Oh, Kendra. My heart is so heavy as I cry reading this post. You clearly have more strength than you realize (or can even see right now).Amandahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10193011466232806815noreply@blogger.com